bk_forever | Entries tagged with life sucks

Current Mood: sore
Current Location: my room
Current Music: tv

So, as some of my friends already know, just over a week ago I had one of those really stupid accidents in the home that shouldn't happen but did. I was cleaning the bath, knelt funny, tried to get my weight off my stupidly painful knee and fell sideways onto the rim of the bath. Result = probable cracked rib, which hurts whenever I do pretty much anything and is preventing me from doing certain things at all, like knitting, and putting up Christmas decorations, and reorganising my room to make space for the computer desk I'm getting. It sucks. Christmas isn't looking too Christmassy right now

I had a cracked rib three years ago, that time I did it through coughing while closing a drawer. This feels the same so probably is, it might even be the same rib. Since all the doctor would say is that I probably have a cracked rib, there's no point going to see him, so I'm just trying not to put too much strain on it. Which is easier said than done =/

So if I'm not being very cheery and festive this Christmas, this is why. Hopefully you'll all for give me if I'm grumpy and complaining. I hope you're all having a better time than I am right now.

*hugs everyone very carefully*

Current Mood: annoyed
Current Location: my room
Current Music: silence

So, yesterday I went to do the laundry and found the washing machine didn't work. It's getting on in years and had been a bit iffy for a while, so it wasn't a huge surprise. I figured as it was quite a few years old and not under warranty I should replace it rather than get it repaired, and since there were Black Friday deals to be had, the timing was serendipitous - if you have to replace a large appliance, best to do it when you can get a good bargain.

I found a good make with great performance ratings at a saving of £70, it does half loads which is ideal for me now I'm on my own, and best of all, delivery, installation, and recycling of my old machine were included in the price. Yay!

What I only found out when I got a phonecall this morning to arrange a suitable delivery day was that I was expected to disconnect and remove the old machine myself. Like I said, I live alone, I have health problems, I'm not strong (the machines weigh a ton) and I'm not a plumber. I don't know the first thing about how to disconnect a washing machine. That's the sort of thing the people who install them know about. But they're apparently not allowed to disconnect machines, only to install them. Where does that make any kind of sense? The lady on the phone suggested I ask a neighbour for help. Most of them either have less technical skill than I do or are in their seventies and eighties. I suppose I could call my plumber and pay him to disconnect it, but I'm trying to save money. Just buying the machine, even at a discount, is taking a big bite out of my budget.

Now my friend is going to have to get the help of one of his brothers because it'll take at least two people to get the existing machine out of the house, and buy supplies so that nothing leaks all over the floor, some sort of cut-off valve that will be needed because my machine's waste pipe is connected to the waste pipe for the sink and if it's disconnected it'll leave a big hole for water to pour out of every time I use the sink *headdesk*

My kitchen is the size of a postage stamp, the old machine can't be left in there until next Wednesday because it would take up half of the available floor space and I wouldn't be able to open the fridge or the freezer. Bad enough that I'll have to get up at 6am on Wednesday because the delivery time is anywhere from 7am onwards, but I have all this chaos to deal with first.

These days we pay out more and get less service for our money. Is there anywhere out there that disconnects old appliances they're taking away before installing new ones or is everyone just expected to do it themselves? The whole thing is ridiculous.

I am not pleased >=[

Current Mood: crappy
Current Location: my room
Current Music: silence

I've had one hell of a day!

Woke up early this morning (before 7am), checked the clock to see if it was time to get up and found I could barely see the numbers. Vision in my right eye was very blurred and my pupils were different sizes. Needless to say, I panicked a bit. The chimney sweep was due at 11am and I had no idea what was wrong with me, so I called the out of hours medical number. They told me to go to the hospital Accident and Emergency department to get checked out, so my neighbours drove me there, the wife stayed with me and the husband returned home to deal with the sweep if I he showed up while I wasn't there.

I was asked questions, my eyes were looked at, (pupils mostly back to normal) and blood pressure taken (that weas fine), then I was told I should go to my GP. So neighbour's husband picked us up from the hospital and we stopped off at the surgery on the way home, they said to come back just before noon and they'd try to fit me in.

Went home, dealt with the chimney sweep, the neighbour took me to the doctor. (I'd called my boyfriend early on, only to discover that he was over 100 miles away at the coast, but said he'd come back because I was so worried and rather up the creek with everything. He caught up to me at the surgery).

Saw my regular doc, Dr. C, and he said I should have gone to eye casualty at the hospital where they could have checked my eye pressure. Why did no one tell me that while I was AT the hospital? Then he said I should see my optician to get my eye pressure checked. The hospital had told me it wasn't worth going to the optician because they'd just tell me to go to my doctor. So, I've been given the runaround, and the wrong advice by everyone except Dr. C. and now I have to go to the optician tomorrow. *headdesk*

My boyfriend did buy me some lovely flowers while he was doing the shopping though, so there's that.

Doc thinks I might have had an acute glaucoma attack (rise in eye pressure because the eye isn't draining properly). Just what I need. I'm already waiting to have blood tests to try to find out what's causing some other health issues, now this. I just can't win. Didn't get home to stay until after 1pm and now I have to go out again in the morning.

Sometimes life just sucks =(

Ah well, at least I know where to go if it happens again.

Current Mood: worried
Current Location: My Room
Current Music: Silence

The heading says it all really.

Now mum's gone, her will says everything is to be left half to me and half to my older sister. This includes the house. Now if my sister was any kind of a decent person, she'd be happy to let me remain in the family home. She lives 50 miles away, has her own home and a good job. I can't work because of health problems, so I have very little in the way of savings.

I was born in this house, I've never had any other home, and because of my health problems, my home has become my safe place, my sanctuary. It's everything that's familiar. I know the area, I have good neighbours who help when I need it, and all my memories of mum are here, memories that cover 53 years. Naturally, I want to stay here.

But, my sister seems to think that what I want might not be feasible. If she wants her share of the house, there's no way I can buy her out. Even if I scraped together every penny I have, I wouldn't even have a tenth of what that would cost, so now, when I'm still mourning mum, who's only been gone three weeks, I'm facing the possibility of losing my home too. My sister doesn't need the money, and I'm perfectly willing to pay all the house bills and other expenses myself. I don't want to be forced into moving to an unfamiliar area, surrounded by strangers, just because my sister wants her share of mum's estate now.

I'm scared. I don't cope well with change, so I don't know what I'm going to do. This is my home. Where will I go if I have to leave? I really don't need all this stress and worry.

Current Mood: crushed
Current Location: my room
Current Music: silence

All I wanted today was a nice, quiet, relaxing evening and possibly an early night as I haven't been feeling too good the last few days.

What do I get? Mum suddenly out of the blue became very dizzy, so I had to get the paramedics in and spent an hour and a half running around dealing with everything mum needed, answering questions, and packing her off to hospital. It is 11pm here, and the hospital she's being taken to, there's no guarantee that they won't discharge her in the middle of the night. She's 84, had a stroke less than 18 months ago, and is often confused. I couldn't go with her because of my own health issues and my sister is 50 miles away.

I have no idea what will happen now, I should go to bed but what if they phone in the middle of the night to say she's coming home? Plus, if she's so dizzy she can't even stand up, how do they think I can take care of her when she outweighs me by about three stone.

Life sucks. I'm exhausted anyway because I never get enough sleep, now I've got even more to deal with, alone. There's not even anyone I can call.

Current Mood: busy
Current Location: my room
Current Music: Kentucky Headhunters

Why do things keep going wrong?

We had the chimney sweep booked for today. He was a little late, but that's to be expected. However, our chimney remains unswept and now we have the sweep's brush and at least one rod jammed up the it. The suspicion is that the chimney liner that was put in nearly four years ago has collapsed. What is known for sure is that the chimney is blocked with wet gunk that looks like dark soil, the sweep got about half a large bucketful out. I'd already taken about the same amount out that had fallen down into the fireplace over summer. This should not happen with a modern chimney liner. It's possible the one that's in there was installed upside down so that the soot and any rainwater seeping in have been collecting in ridges that are supposed to point downwards. It's equally possible that the liner has become detached at the top and dropped down, allowing the old lining material that was crumbling before we hasd the new liner fitted to continue falling into the chimney flue. Either way, it''s a mess and as the sweep is booked solid well into November, he's decided to give up a Sunday to fix things because he sees this as an emergency. Also, it's eaten one of his brushes and he wants it back. It's an old brush, true, but it's the principle of the thing. Chimneys do not get to keep the brushes that get rammed up them.

It's going to be a big job, he'll have to bash a hole in the chimney breast (thankfully we still haven't redecorated since the last time, so it's not spoiling anything) and also go up on the roof. It's unclear right now whether the liner can be pulled back up and removed that way, or if it will have to be dragged out of the hole in the chimney breast. Oh joy. It's also going to be a big bill, probably upwards of £1000, what with labour, materials and scaffolding to reach the roof. Fun fun fun! Not.

What a delightful day! *sarcasm*

After a very stressful morning doing shopping and stuff, I come home and find we have NO WATER! The entire street is affected, plus the main road, and all the water company can say is "We think there might be a burst water main, but we don't know where. No idea how long you'll be without water. You can phone again later for an update." SCREAM!

This is not a good day.

Current Mood: gloomy
Current Location: my room
Current Music: Garth Brooks

Is it just me, or is anyone else finding it impossible to upload documents to fanfiction.net?

I was late posting my daily drabble yesterday due to circumstances beyond my control (why do people think Easter is the perfect excuse to descend on other people without an invitation or any warning?), and when I got around to posting at ff.net, I got precisely nowhere. Try as I might, at least a dozen fruitless attempts later I had to give up and go to bed so I tried again first thing this morning and I'm STILL getting an error message.

If you look out your window and see a huge cloud of gloom on the horizon, it's probably the one hanging over my head right now. *sigh*

Current Mood: sore
Current Location: my room
Current Music: TV

Still in a lot of pain, so I called in the doctor - no, not the Time Lord sadly, just a common or garden GP.

Long story short, he's pretty sure I've cracked a rib. I know some of you out there know how THAT feels. So, that's going to take a few weeks to heal, but I still have to clean out the coal fire and shovel coal every day. Oh joy.

Surely I'm due for some GOOD luck by now?

Pretty please?

Current Mood: sore
Current Location: my room
Current Music: birds singing

Safe to say life isn't being kind to me right now. I've been stuck with this cough for a week now, not getting much sleep because I keep coughing myself awake, so I had a friend get me some cough syrup in the hope of getting some much needed sleep. Decided I'd take it at bedtime, so I went to finish things up downstairs before going to bed, went to unplug the kettle I think, but anyway I coughed at the wrong moment and got a stabbing pain through my ribs on my right side. Ow! Coughing hurt. A lot.

So, I took the cough medicine and went to bed, and of course it had no effect on my cough whatsoever. Every time I coughed, pain shot through my ribs and when I tried to lie down, coughing in that position just made it worse and I got stuck, couldn't push myself up with my right arm. Eventually I managed to wriggle around carefully and sit up, but that meant I was back to sitting bolt upright, which isn't restful, coughing and in pain. Went to get some painkillers at 3am only to find that all the ones we had were WAY out of date. So, I got about an hour's sleep, I still have no painkillers because I can't go anywhere and every time I think the pain is going I cough and find that no, it's still there. I don't even have an ice pack. Thankfully my sister will be here in about another hour (which will be 12 hours since I pulled whatever it is I pulled), and she's bringing painkillers because I phoned and asked her to. What's the betting they won't work either?

What did I do to deserve this? *resigned sigh* (not a heavy sigh because it hurts to breathe deeply).

Current Mood: sad
Current Location: My Room
Current Music: Birds Singing

Despite everything George has tried, Misty hasn't got any better so a decision has had to be made. They will be bringing him home at around 1.30pm where he will be put to sleep, so I can lay him to rest in the back garden as all my other furred and feathered friends have been over the years.

Needless to say, this is a heartbreaking day and I'm going to miss him deeply, but I have to do what's best for him and I don't want him to suffer. He's lived to a good age despite all his tooth problems and I believe he's had a mostly happy life, though I'm certain he hasn't enjoyed being forced to take disgusting antibiotics on so many occasions.

I won't be getting another rabbit, he'd be an impossible act to follow.

Current Mood: worried
Current Location: My Room
Current Music: Silence

Well, that's a bit of an understatement.

Went downstairs a bit over an hour ago, and mum couldn't talk understandably. Possible stroke, possible urinary infection, no idea which but she's being taken to the stroke unit and I'm stuck here because on top of the agoraphobia and usual health problems, I have a virus and now I've got chronic indigestion from the stress so I can't even sit comfortably.

Some days, life sucks.

All I can do is wait for the hospital to get in touch. Probably won't get much sleep tonight and there may be posting delays tomorrow, so apologies in advance if Fic of the Week and my last drabble end up being late. I'll do my best (got to keep my mind occupied somehow) but no promises.

I'll just be right here, wibbling quietly in my corner. I have my teddy bear for company, but I'm not a happy bunny right now. Good wishes, prayers etc would be very welcome right now.

Current Mood: shocked
Current Location: My Room
Current Music: Silence

I have a pair of jeans that I always wear when I go out because they fit me perfectly and they're just sooooo comfortable (I've been wearing them for 35 years), but now they're developing fashionable tears and I'm at an age where I prefer my clothes not to have holes in them that aren't meant to be there.

So, long story short, I went digging in my wardrobe to find out what trousers I can wear tomorrow... and horror of horrors, HARDLY ANYTHING FITS!!!!

My gorgeous stripy jeans that I adore won't do up, neither will my pretty pale pink pair, which are labelled size 14, but they can't be because I'm a size 12 and they don't fit and if they're size 14 then they damn well SHOULD fit! I AM still a size 12, damnit! Except around the middle apparently.

I've had to throw out three other pairs as well... (okay, one pair fitted but they're vile and I don't even remember where they came from, probably mum's cast-offs).

I did find two pairs of jeans that fastened but were a bit tight, one pair that are comfortable but have ridiculously shallow pockets (I need good pockets), and one pair that have deep pockets and fit quite well (and have elastic in the waist). But they DO fit, so I guess I know what I'm wearing tomorrow.

But I have Middle Age Spread! When did that happen? Come to think of it, when did I reach middle age?

Woe.

*crawls off to mope*

Current Mood: sore
Current Location: My Room
Current Music: TV

*whimper* Everything hates me!

A couple of days ago I hurt my wrist - no idea how, but it's making life difficult. But now the blasted metal clothes prop has fallen on my already bad toe and I can barely hobble. All this on top of backed up drains and I feel like crawling under the bed and staying there permanently =(

Don't mind me, I'm just feeling sorry for myself. *whimper*

Current Mood: crappy
Current Location: My Room
Current Music: CSI Miami

Just so everyone knows - my computer (my Ianto) has packed up, so I'm trying to use my mum's laptop which has hardly been used and has windows 7.

I HATE WINDOWS SEVEN! It only lets me open one internet browsing window at a time. I typically have 5 going at once - my dreamwidth, torchwood_three, ff.net, ebay & Teaspoon. Now, apparently, I can't do that =(

None of my files are on here either, which is a headache. I want my computer back. This is not fun.

I'll endeavour to keep up as best I can though.

Current Mood: aggravated
Current Location: My Room
Current Music: Workmen!

A word of advice about Windows Internet Explorer 9:

AVOID IT LIKE THE PLAGUE!!!!!!!

It's complete and utter crap - I wound up with it on my computer and couldn't do anything with it that I normally do, it took me the best part of an hour to find a way to get rid of it again! Thank god for restore points.

New does not automatically mean 'better'. *hugs old version*

Current Mood: stressed
Current Location: My Sanctuary
Current Music: Me, wibbling

Work has started on the house. This SHOULD be good news, however I've not been feeling well today (or yesterday), we've had an army of workmen trooping through the house stripping polystyrene tiles off all the upstairs ceilings (yeah, I know, but it was insulation back when you couldn't get much else), another team putting new lintels above the windows in preparation for the new windows next week, and we have no kitchen! What little there was has been ripped out (we still have cooker and fridge), so we have no sink or draining board and won't have until next Monday because the plumber isn't available until then =(

I kinda wish they hadn't started the kitchen until next week. There is rubble and dust everywhere, my rabbit is traumatised, and they've piled tools, kitchen units and worktops in the front room so I can't get to things I'd put in there so they were easy to get at, without squeezing past and climbing over things. Kill me now =(

Current Mood: crappy
Current Location: Lounge
Current Music: Guinea Pigs munching

My life sucks. Tomorrow is mum's 80th birthday and I've got one of my 3-day migraines.

My sister, niece and nephew will be driving up tomorrow, and my boyfriend will also be here. They are all classed as guests (even though my sister lived here for 20 years), so despite my migraine, I will be expected to serve food and drinks to everyone, as well as doing all my usual jobs of feeding and cleaning out the pets, cleaning out the fire and getting the coal in. No doubt I'll also be expected to do all the washing up generated by six people. I can't even go to my room and rest in the quiet as my room is still uninhabitable and there's nowhere to comfortably sit. Not that there will be anywhere for me to sit downstairs either. There will be six people and only seating for four, so my sister will no doubt take my chair, simply because she's older and visiting. I'll have to stand or sit on the floor.

My boyfriend has bought mum a birthday cake, which was nice of him, but it's chocolate. He knows I can't have chocolate because it gives me migraines. So tomorrow, everyone but me will be eating birthday cake. =(

In two weeks, it'll be my birthday, but no one will visit for that and I'll still have to do all my jobs, and since my migraines are every two weeks, I'll probably have a migraine then too. And I still have to sleep on the lounge floor, like I have been for at least 6 weeks. I'm fed up!

Current Mood: distressed
Current Location: Lounge
Current Music: TV

Just when we thought things couldn't get any worse - the back boiler on our solid fuel fire is now leaking. All our heating runs off this fire, so now we will have not only a damp house that we've been told will take weeks - if not months - to dry out, but no heating either.

I can't sleep in my room anyway - the industrial de-humidifier is too big and noisy, we're too cluttered to do anything much and with so much turfed out of my room we can't do any sorting and clearing.

What else can happen to ruin not only Christmas but our lives? Mum is 79, I'm in very poor health at the best of times and the damp is already getting on my chest. Plus I think I'm getting another migraine.

I've never been so miserable in my life =(

Current Mood: distressed
Current Location: Lounge
Current Music: Mum talking to Insurance Company

Just to let everyone know, I might not be around for a while. We're in chaos here, a pipe burst in the loft and water came pouring through my ceiling. My bed, clothes and floor are soaked, I'll be sleeping on the downstairs floor for a while, everything is wet and now the loft isn't insulated because that's all sodden and we can barely stay warm anyway.

If there wasn't so much to do, I'd just sit and cry.

My plans for Christmas fic are abandoned, in fact all Christmas plans are abandoned, I probably won't even get cards out this year.

So sorry if you're waiting for Nosy-fic - it'll be awhile.

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Entries tagged with life sucks

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LIFE SUCKS! =(

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Life Sucks

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LIFE HAS IT IN FOR ME =(

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