Not having a great evening...

[bk_forever]

Well, that's a bit of an understatement.

Went downstairs a bit over an hour ago, and mum couldn't talk understandably. Possible stroke, possible urinary infection, no idea which but she's being taken to the stroke unit and I'm stuck here because on top of the agoraphobia and usual health problems, I have a virus and now I've got chronic indigestion from the stress so I can't even sit comfortably.

Some days, life sucks.

All I can do is wait for the hospital to get in touch. Probably won't get much sleep tonight and there may be posting delays tomorrow, so apologies in advance if Fic of the Week and my last drabble end up being late. I'll do my best (got to keep my mind occupied somehow) but no promises.

I'll just be right here, wibbling quietly in my corner. I have my teddy bear for company, but I'm not a happy bunny right now. Good wishes, prayers etc would be very welcome right now.

Comments

[lexxiescott]

Oh no! I hope the hospital gets back to you quickly and your mum is okay. Nothing scarier than waiting. Wish I could be there with you to hold your hand.
*hugs*

[bk_forever]

Thanks *hugs back*

Just got off the phone, they're taking her for a scan to see if there's anything going on in her brain that they can treat, and they're giving her another asprin (she takes one a day anyway). I'm to call in about 12 hours to find out what's going on. Apparently she's getting the strength back in her leg and arm (she had right side weakness), but her speech is still slurred.

I'm stressed. I needed to get more sleep but it looks like I'll be getting a lot less instead. Can't even turn to my boyfriend, I barely see him these days, maybe once a week or every two weeks and he never stays long. Don't know what's going on with him either. If it wasn't for the internet I'd be completely lost. Maybe I'll just stay online all night.

[milady-dragon.livejournal.com]

Oh crap. I hope everything works out all right with your Mum. I do pray it's not a stroke.

*hugs*

Do what you need to do, and take care, okay?

[bk_forever]

Doing my best, don't know if I'll sleep tonight. Last I heard, they were taking her for a brain scan. I'll no more tomorrow. If it was a stroke, it was a small one, so there's that. I'm keeping everything crossed.

Thank you *hugs back*

[katwillow.livejournal.com]

You have have all my best thoughts for you.
Feel better bunny

And i hope tomorrow finds your mother much better.

K.

[bk_forever]

Thank you *hugs* It's tough sitting here waiting, not being able to go with her or anything. They were going to do a scan so I'll know more tomorrow.

[magikalrhiannon.livejournal.com]

*HUGS* Oh honey, I'm so sorry! I hope she'll be okay. Sending heaps of good vibes your way!!!!

[bk_forever]

Thank you *hugs back* I won't know anything else until tomorrow, but at least she's where they can look after her. Last I heard they were taking her for a brain scan to see if there was anything they could treat, but they did say her leg and arm wre stronger (right side weakness) though her speech is still slurred.

[blossomlegs.livejournal.com]

Thoughts with you and your Mom. Take care.

[bk_forever]

Thank you *hugs*

Going to try to get some sleep soon, don't expect to sleep well though. I hope mum will be back to normal soon. She's 82.

[totally4ryo.livejournal.com]

I hope your mom will be all right. *hugs* If you find you can't sleep, email me (or even go on IM?). That way you won't feel on your own.

*hugs again*

[bk_forever]

Thank you *hugs*

I can never get IM to work, I get in a complete mess. Total technology dunce. Going to try to sleep soon. I need to if I can because I'll have a lot to do tomorrow.

Mum's at the good hospital, she'll be looked after well there but it's further away. Don't know if my sister will come up to visit her while she's there. Can't see me going myself though. I hate being suck here, but I have a possible virus anyway so it's not a good idea visiting a hospital.

Right, bedtime now. I'm making too many mistakes with my typing. Means I'm too tired.

[lilyrose225.livejournal.com]

Sweetie, you have all my prayers coming your way right now. I hope you can feel the love over the Internets, because all of mine is being channeled to you.

Dunno if this'll help, but when I'm not having a great time I always think, "this too shall pass."

In any case, try your best to get some sleep--things usually look better in the morning. T.T

[bk_forever]

Thanks, sweetie *hugs* I really appreciate your prayers and support.

News this morning is cautiously optimistic, I'm just trying to call everyone to let them know. Not the relaxing week I'd been hoping for!

[tardisjournal.livejournal.com]

I'm really sorry to hear that! How terrible to find her that way, and how scary for you! It's an awful feeling not knowing what's going on. I hope you get some news soon, and that it's not as bad as they fear. At least you were there and found her quickly--that's so important when dealing with possible stroke!

I'm sorry you have to wait alone, though if you'd gone with her to the hospital you'd probably just wind up sitting in the waiting room, and I know from experience those are no fun. At least it's more comfortable at home and you have the Internet. You're never completely alone there--you have friends worldwide. :)

I'll definitely keep you both in my prayers! *Hugs*

[bk_forever]

Thanks so much *hugs* Still not sure if it is a stroke or not, but if it is it's not a bad one. her weakness is mostly gone but speech is still slurred I'll know more later, my sister is driving up to visit this afternoon, so she'll talk to the staff and find out more. As an occupational therapist herself she knows the questions to ask. I,m trying to phone round and let people know, which is hard. I'll try to at least post my drabble later.

*hugs* thanks for your prayers and support, both much appreciated. It's good to have such wonderful friends.

[too-beauty.livejournal.com]

sos orry to hear about your mum but things will be okay soon!
Take care of yourself too because we are all a bit far to do that! I am online almost al your afternoon so don't doubt to talk to me!
prayers, hugs and good vibes to you and your mother!

[bk_forever]

Thank you *hugs*

I'm coping just about. Mum is doing okay so far, I'll know more later. My sister is going to visit her, and her best friend is going too. I've still got people I need to phone, but without my dear online friends I'd be completely lost.

All prayers, hugs and good vibes gratefully received =)

[iantojjackh.livejournal.com]

*hugs* I'm so sorry to hear that. You and your mum will be in my prayers.

[bk_forever]

Thank you *hugs*

I'm hanging in. My sister's visiting mum this afternoon, so I'll know more after that. Just feeling very stressed.

[sassysailorgirl.livejournal.com]

*hugs you senseless* Oh, sweetie! I'm sorry you're going through such horrid shit! Of course I'll pray for you and your mum.

I'd have a serious discussion with the BF, if I were you. If he were my BF, he'd have some explaining to do...

[bk_forever]

He's even less of a talker than Ianto, it's like gettin g bl;ood out of a stone and right now is definitely not a time for serious talks *sighs*

Thanks, sweetie. I'm hanging in there, did manage to sleep a bit last night. Letting everyone know is tough, so many phone calls. My sister's on her way over so she'll go to see mum.

*hugs* Thanks for the prayers =)

[ms-bekahrose.livejournal.com]

*cuddles* Oh sweetie... I'm so sorry and I hope it's nothing serious.

[bk_forever]

*hugs* Thanks sweetie.

On the bright side, if it is a stroke it's not a bad one, so there's that. She'll need speech therapy and physiotherapy though, probably be in hospital a few days at least. I'll find out more later, my sister is going over to the hospital this afternoon.

[ma2d2.livejournal.com]

So sorry to hear. My prayers and good thoughts go out to you and hope your mum recovers well and you feel better soon. All the very best. Big bear hugs to you!

[bk_forever]

Thank you *hugs back*

Your thoughts and prayers are much appreciated.

Mum seems to be doing okay so far, my sister will visit her this afternoon so I should have a better idea of what's going on later.

[timelordshines.livejournal.com]

*hugs*
I'm so sorry to hear bout your mum.that must be so scary but you found her in time and she is at the hospital now so they can care for her. It is the best place.
My thoughts are with her and you.
Make sure you look after yourself. She will need you at full strength when she gets home.
I'm so sorry I wasn't online last night when you needed someone to talk to. I went to bed early. But I'm here now to email if you need to talk.
I have my fingers and everything else crossed that the news from the hospital this morning will be good.
*hugs*

[bk_forever]

*hugs back* Thanks. I'm doing the best I can, under the circumstances. It was very scary. I think I must have found her quite soon after it happened so at least there's that. News this morning, still not confirmed as a stroke but my right side is stronger. Her speech is still slurred and she's a bit confused, but she's doing okay. My sister's going to visit her this afternoon. I should know more after that. Got more people to contact though, they'll want to knw. Think it's just the locals now.

I'm so lucky to have such amazing friends *hugs*

[iolo1234.livejournal.com]

So sorry to hear about your Mum but she's being looked after. As other people have said make sure that you look after yourself as well.
Lots of hugs
K
xx

[bk_forever]

*hugs* Thank you, I'm doing my best. Just so many people to contact, I need to ge on with that. Everything else will just have to wait. News is good so far, but mum's going to be in hospital at least for a few days. She's better off there.

[toshiani007.livejournal.com]

Big hug, my dear friend!!!
Love you!!!
Ani

[bk_forever]

*Hugs back* Thank you, Ani, Love you too!

[owensheart.livejournal.com]

Oh my dear friend *hugs you* it sounds like a Stroke but they can be successfully treated. My husband has had three and has come out with only minor issues. One of them also stopped him for speaking for a time but he has no ill effects from that one.

Hang in there where are all thinking of you.

[bk_forever]

Thany you, my friend *hugs back* That's reassuring to know. It seems to have been a relatively mild one. Her speech is still slurred but she can mostly be understood now, which is hopeful. I'm just waiting now to see what my sister finds out at the hospital.

[awieatti.livejournal.com]

Oh dear, I hope you'll get better soon! Both of you.
*Hugs you*

[bk_forever]

Thank you *hugs*

The amount of support I'm getting from all my friends here is quite humbling, I really appreciate it.

[nightchild78.livejournal.com]

All my thoughts with you and your family. I hope your mum will be better soon. I'll pray for you.

[bk_forever]

Thank you so much. *hugs*

We don't know how long it will take for mum to recover from this, but trying to remain optimistic. It's so strange to be home alone. I miss her, even though we spend most of our time in different rooms.

[red-day-dawning.livejournal.com]

Sending my good wishes and my prayers. Lots of love.

[bk_forever]

Thank you *hugs* Very much appreciated.

Hugs, more hugs and purrs from the cats

[aviv-b.livejournal.com]

OMG - I'm so sorry to hear about your mum.It sounds like she's doing better today, thank goodness. Please let us know how her recovery is going. With two elderly parents, I know exactly what you are going through.

Re: Hugs, more hugs and purrs from the cats

[bk_forever]

Thank you *hugs*

When I phoned the hospital, she was sitting in a chair having dinner, but she has to be prompted to swallow. My sister will be visiting her this afternoon so I'll find out more after that. The hospital won't say much over the phone and I of course, can't visit which is frustrating. I'm stuck with the task of updating the relatives and friends, which is leaving precious little time for things like washing up, laundry, eating etc. And I have a migraine.

Mum

[asia27.livejournal.com]

I hope all is well for her! I will light a smudge stick and prayers for you both. Stories can wait, I hope to hear good news from you whenever you can post.

Re: Mum

[bk_forever]

Thanks *hugs*

I'm trying to stay optimistic, but it's hard when I can't visit her because of my own health problems and the hospital won't give out much over the phone. Myu sister will visit mum this afternoon, so I'll find out more then. Just keeping my fingers crossed it will be better news than yesterday.

[neverminetohold.livejournal.com]

I only logged in an hour ago and didn't see this earlier... I'm so sorry to hear about your mum! It must have been such a shock finding her like that and then having to wait for news at home, that kind of stress and worry would get to anyone. I hope you are no longer left hanging by the doctors and know what her condition is?

I hope that it is nothing too serious and that she will be alright! *hugs*

[bk_forever]

Thank you *hugs*

Looks like it was a stroke. The hospital won't give out much over the phone, which is a problem because I can't visit. My sister is visiting mum again today so I'll find out more from her later, but hopefully mum will gradually improve.

I've just got to sort out everything here and keep all the relatives up to date with news. Got to find bills that need paying, I don't know where mum keeps them and she can't tell me. It's not fun.

[royalladyemma.livejournal.com]

Oh honey, I am so sorry to hear about your mum! What have the doctor's said? How is her prognosis? What about you? How are you doing?

I'm send you great armfuls of prayers and hugs, and my kitties and I are thinking of you.

Luv you bunches, Melinda

[bk_forever]

*hugs back*

Thank you! I'm coping now I'm over my latest migraine.

Prognosis on mum is good - it wasn't a severe stroke but was complicated by an infection. Talking is hit and miss, but she starts speech therapy and physiotherapy now she's on a rehab ward. The most worrying thing is a lesion on her back, which ashe's known about for over a year but done nothing about and which is skin cancer. that's being removed on the 17th of this month, so we'll have to see what happens then.

She's walking well, but can't grip with her rifgt hand very well, which is awkward as she's right-handed so she can't write. She's finding it all frustrating as her mind is clear, but everything else is causing difficulties. My sister is visiting her this afternoon.

Thanks for the prayers and hugs, they're greatly appreciated.

[kul-breez.livejournal.com]

I was on vacation with no internet access, so I am just reading this now. I hope you and your Mom are OK. I am definitely sending good wishes.

[bk_forever]

Thank you *hugs*

Mum is improving, she can talk a bit but is still having problems with swallowing so can only eat mushy things. She's walking quite well, but her right hand won't grip. Now she's been moved to a rehasb ward she'll get speech and physio therapy. I'm pleased with how well she's doing and have spoken to her on the phone a couple of times. The only thing that's really worrying me at the moment is that she has a lesion on her back that she told no one about and turns out it's skin cancer. She's had it for at least a year apparently, but if not for the stroke we would have never known. She knew it was there but hoped it would go away. She's having it removed on the 17th, then we'll find out more.

I'm coping though it's a bit lonely here, especially at night. Thank goodness for all my internet friends!