Not having a great evening...

[bk_forever]

Well, that's a bit of an understatement.

Went downstairs a bit over an hour ago, and mum couldn't talk understandably. Possible stroke, possible urinary infection, no idea which but she's being taken to the stroke unit and I'm stuck here because on top of the agoraphobia and usual health problems, I have a virus and now I've got chronic indigestion from the stress so I can't even sit comfortably.

Some days, life sucks.

All I can do is wait for the hospital to get in touch. Probably won't get much sleep tonight and there may be posting delays tomorrow, so apologies in advance if Fic of the Week and my last drabble end up being late. I'll do my best (got to keep my mind occupied somehow) but no promises.

I'll just be right here, wibbling quietly in my corner. I have my teddy bear for company, but I'm not a happy bunny right now. Good wishes, prayers etc would be very welcome right now.

Comments

[lexxiescott]

Oh no! I hope the hospital gets back to you quickly and your mum is okay. Nothing scarier than waiting. Wish I could be there with you to hold your hand.
*hugs*

[bk_forever]

Thanks *hugs back*

Just got off the phone, they're taking her for a scan to see if there's anything going on in her brain that they can treat, and they're giving her another asprin (she takes one a day anyway). I'm to call in about 12 hours to find out what's going on. Apparently she's getting the strength back in her leg and arm (she had right side weakness), but her speech is still slurred.

I'm stressed. I needed to get more sleep but it looks like I'll be getting a lot less instead. Can't even turn to my boyfriend, I barely see him these days, maybe once a week or every two weeks and he never stays long. Don't know what's going on with him either. If it wasn't for the internet I'd be completely lost. Maybe I'll just stay online all night.

[milady-dragon.livejournal.com]

Oh crap. I hope everything works out all right with your Mum. I do pray it's not a stroke.

*hugs*

Do what you need to do, and take care, okay?

[lexxiescott]

Hopefully the scans will show something they can treat and will help her heal up a little. It's really super scary when it happens to a parent. We've had scares with my dad before, so I do know a little of what you're going through.

Do try to rest. With you being sick and stressed, it's possible you could make yourself worse. I know how hard it is, but resting can be a good stop-gap for sleep when you're stressed. I doubt you're going to be able to relax enough to sleep.

I'll be online as long as I'm at work. We can keep going back and forth like this if you need to. I have no chat programs on the work computer.

*hugs*

[katwillow.livejournal.com]

You have have all my best thoughts for you.
Feel better bunny

And i hope tomorrow finds your mother much better.

K.

[magikalrhiannon.livejournal.com]

*HUGS* Oh honey, I'm so sorry! I hope she'll be okay. Sending heaps of good vibes your way!!!!

[bk_forever]

Thanks a lot *hugs* I'm going to have to try to sleep, when the indigestion is gone anyway. For now, it's 1am, I'm trying to keep some routine going so I've backed up everything I've been working on taday, I still need to put my action figures to bed - maybe I can get rest through them, sleep by proxy, lol!

Mum's in the best place and the nurses were thorough with their questions. The doctor sounded very young, but it's hard to tell really, over the phone. I'll find out more tomorrow - in the meantime, they have my number. Been through this before when mum had a heart attack in jan 2000, and again a few years ago when she was dizzy and breathless in the middle of the night and I had to get an ambulance out then. That time it was a chest infection.

Must go take my own pills before I forget...

[bk_forever]

Doing my best, don't know if I'll sleep tonight. Last I heard, they were taking her for a brain scan. I'll no more tomorrow. If it was a stroke, it was a small one, so there's that. I'm keeping everything crossed.

Thank you *hugs back*

[bk_forever]

Thank you *hugs* It's tough sitting here waiting, not being able to go with her or anything. They were going to do a scan so I'll know more tomorrow.

[blossomlegs.livejournal.com]

Thoughts with you and your Mom. Take care.

[bk_forever]

Thank you *hugs back* I won't know anything else until tomorrow, but at least she's where they can look after her. Last I heard they were taking her for a brain scan to see if there was anything they could treat, but they did say her leg and arm wre stronger (right side weakness) though her speech is still slurred.

[bk_forever]

Thank you *hugs*

Going to try to get some sleep soon, don't expect to sleep well though. I hope mum will be back to normal soon. She's 82.

[lexxiescott]

Upset stomachs do make it hard to sleep. Uncomfortable, too. I was just looking at the time and trying to do the math. I knew it was getting late for you because it's almost my supper time. Routine can be a comfort. Hopefully you all get some sleep.

It sounds like a good hospital. I don't know why illness always seems to strike in the middle of the night, but it does. Awesome that you guys have such good care around you. :)

Pills are important. *grins* I almost forgot my night ones yesterday. That would have been interesting trying to work out why I didn't feel good.

[totally4ryo.livejournal.com]

I hope your mom will be all right. *hugs* If you find you can't sleep, email me (or even go on IM?). That way you won't feel on your own.

*hugs again*

[bk_forever]

Pills all taken, I just have to switch off the computer and modem, then get ready for bed. I can read when I'm in bed, until I go to sleep.

I just wish I'd gone downstairs earlier. I did right after the crystal auction because mum always likes to know what I won. (I got her a Grossular Garnet for her arthritis), but then I came back up, watched Once Upon A Time and was looking at other crystals, decided to buy a few and I only went down to ask if she wanted me to get her a Stichtite - they're not often available and I'd fouund some at a good price with one of my favourite sellers. They're good for regulating blood pressure and helping the brain. Needless to say, I've bought her one anyway. She might need it when she gets home. It certainly can't hurt. But if I hadn't been thinking of getting them, I wouldn't have gone downstairs for another hour at least so it's a good thing I decided to be extravagant tonight.

[bk_forever]

Thank you *hugs*

I can never get IM to work, I get in a complete mess. Total technology dunce. Going to try to sleep soon. I need to if I can because I'll have a lot to do tomorrow.

Mum's at the good hospital, she'll be looked after well there but it's further away. Don't know if my sister will come up to visit her while she's there. Can't see me going myself though. I hate being suck here, but I have a possible virus anyway so it's not a good idea visiting a hospital.

Right, bedtime now. I'm making too many mistakes with my typing. Means I'm too tired.

[lexxiescott]

Hope the book helps you settle enough to sleep.

Sounds like a good crystal auction with some nice ones for your Mum. It's so hard when they end up sick and you didn't catch it right away. At least you did catch it and she didn't go through the night before you realized something was wrong. That's one of my biggest fears with my dad.

[lilyrose225.livejournal.com]

Sweetie, you have all my prayers coming your way right now. I hope you can feel the love over the Internets, because all of mine is being channeled to you.

Dunno if this'll help, but when I'm not having a great time I always think, "this too shall pass."

In any case, try your best to get some sleep--things usually look better in the morning. T.T

[tardisjournal.livejournal.com]

I'm really sorry to hear that! How terrible to find her that way, and how scary for you! It's an awful feeling not knowing what's going on. I hope you get some news soon, and that it's not as bad as they fear. At least you were there and found her quickly--that's so important when dealing with possible stroke!

I'm sorry you have to wait alone, though if you'd gone with her to the hospital you'd probably just wind up sitting in the waiting room, and I know from experience those are no fun. At least it's more comfortable at home and you have the Internet. You're never completely alone there--you have friends worldwide. :)

I'll definitely keep you both in my prayers! *Hugs*

[too-beauty.livejournal.com]

sos orry to hear about your mum but things will be okay soon!
Take care of yourself too because we are all a bit far to do that! I am online almost al your afternoon so don't doubt to talk to me!
prayers, hugs and good vibes to you and your mother!

[iantojjackh.livejournal.com]

*hugs* I'm so sorry to hear that. You and your mum will be in my prayers.

[sassysailorgirl.livejournal.com]

*hugs you senseless* Oh, sweetie! I'm sorry you're going through such horrid shit! Of course I'll pray for you and your mum.

I'd have a serious discussion with the BF, if I were you. If he were my BF, he'd have some explaining to do...

[ms-bekahrose.livejournal.com]

*cuddles* Oh sweetie... I'm so sorry and I hope it's nothing serious.

[ma2d2.livejournal.com]

So sorry to hear. My prayers and good thoughts go out to you and hope your mum recovers well and you feel better soon. All the very best. Big bear hugs to you!

[timelordshines.livejournal.com]

*hugs*
I'm so sorry to hear bout your mum.that must be so scary but you found her in time and she is at the hospital now so they can care for her. It is the best place.
My thoughts are with her and you.
Make sure you look after yourself. She will need you at full strength when she gets home.
I'm so sorry I wasn't online last night when you needed someone to talk to. I went to bed early. But I'm here now to email if you need to talk.
I have my fingers and everything else crossed that the news from the hospital this morning will be good.
*hugs*