Not having a great evening...

[bk_forever]

Well, that's a bit of an understatement.

Went downstairs a bit over an hour ago, and mum couldn't talk understandably. Possible stroke, possible urinary infection, no idea which but she's being taken to the stroke unit and I'm stuck here because on top of the agoraphobia and usual health problems, I have a virus and now I've got chronic indigestion from the stress so I can't even sit comfortably.

Some days, life sucks.

All I can do is wait for the hospital to get in touch. Probably won't get much sleep tonight and there may be posting delays tomorrow, so apologies in advance if Fic of the Week and my last drabble end up being late. I'll do my best (got to keep my mind occupied somehow) but no promises.

I'll just be right here, wibbling quietly in my corner. I have my teddy bear for company, but I'm not a happy bunny right now. Good wishes, prayers etc would be very welcome right now.

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[bk_forever]

I slept, but not well. Nevrr do with a migraine and it's the worst I've had in a while so I feel all kinds of crap. I really need to do nothing today except rest, so I'm trying to.

Yeah, it was seriosly painful, and I have a high pain threshhold.

Oh, that's horrible! I hope the local lasts long enough to at least get you through the procedure. *hugs carefully* Take care!

[lexxiescott]

I'm sort of back. :) I hope the migraine has had a chance to die down and a new one hasn't taken it's place.

The local lasted until they were stitching me up and then they had to shoot me again. I think I got a total of like 40 or 50 pokes to numb me up. I lost count.

How's your Mum doing? And you?

[bk_forever]

EEk, that doesn't sound pleasant! I hope mum's still in hospital when she has hers done, so they can provide pain relief and keep the area clean for her.

Mum's doing better. Still having trouble with talking, chewing, swallowing etc. Walking better though. She's on a rehab ward now so she'll get physio and speech therapy, which she needs. I've spoken to her on the phone a couple of times. She can understand just fine, but her mouth won't cooperate. Single words are usually understandle and she manages the odd short sentence, but then everything gets garbled again and she gets frustrated. She can say Grrrr really well, lol!

My migraine has gone for now, but there's so much to sort out here and I need to be careful not to overdo things - easier said than done. Not getting anywhere near enough sleep either. I was already run down before this started so it's not helping. I've lost more weight that I can't afford to lose too. I'm kept running up and down stairs so much answering the door and the phone that I'm not getting enough time to rest either. Got far too m uch to do around here, including rearranging the whole kitchen so that when mum does come home she'll be able to reach plates and things. At the moment they're in our one wall cupboard because when the house was re-wired, the new fuse box was put on the shelf where our plate rack used to go. Now there's no room. We weren't consulted about where it would be most convenient for us so we lost a lot of badly needed shelf space in the pantry.

[lexxiescott]

It really wasn't, although the gal doing the shots had a gentle touch. I didn't feel all of them, thankfully. I'd hope they did your Mum's while she's there. It just makes better sense. There's a lot of after care for this thing to keep out infection. Fortunately no pills though. I can't take those things.

It sounds like she's working back from this with spirit. Being able to grrrr is important. :) Seriously, I'm glad that she's doing as well as it sounds like she is. That's a relief.

Remodel fail. Sheesh. That one should have been common sense. I hope you can get it worked out so she can still use the kitchen. Sounds like quite the project to be doing, especially right now. I wish there was a way you could have a day to rest and maybe get to feeling a little better. I know one day isn't a magic number, but it would help a little. It's always so hard when things pile up like this.

Hope you have a good night.
*hugs*

[bk_forever]

Slept a bit better last night. I put a new battery in my wall clock (which isn't on the wall, it's propped on a shelf, lol!) and it's ticking again. I hadn't even realised it had stopped but I sleep better when I can hear it ticking. Weird.

Got up this morning to bright sunshine and clear blue skies,so I put a load of washing on. It's not done yet, but the sky is now mostly heavy cloud, looks like rain. So now I'll be stuck eith a load of wet washing indoors that I can't get dry, just what I was trying to avoid. I'm not happy.

I hope I can get it sorted but it's going to take time and I have to be careful not to overdo things, especially if I'm going to have any chance at all of visiting mum. Just keeping on top of the day-to-day stuff is proving nearly impossible, never mind getting a ton of laundry done and rearranging everything and cleaning the house... when someone comes to assess the house (which they will have to before mum can come home) they're going to be shocked. It's not my fault though, or mum's. We've been left to cope alone and we simply can't. Heather rarely visits at the best of times so we don't get help from her. I know she works full time and it's hard for her, but even so, she knows we're not able to cope. And now we're facing trying to get a stair lift fitted possible, which will also involve having a new carpet on the stairs and landing, which will mean moving a ton of furniture on the landing. I need help with all of this but have no one I can really ask. All can do is get a bit at a time done.

[lexxiescott]

That's good, I'm glad you were able to get some rest. I love the sound of a clock ticking. It's really soothing. If you're used to having it there, it's not a surprise you sleep better. I think background noises are important for a good night's sleep, even if it's just the house settling.

Stupid weather. That sucks. Wet laundry is no fun. :(

I don't know how it works out in England, we never studied the government, but are their aid groups that could come in and help you get the house ready for your Mum to come home again? We have a few like that here in the states, I don't think they charge. It might be something to look into.

hugs and more hugs.

[bk_forever]

I honestly don't know. My sister should know things like that, but she hasn't said anything. Have to wait and see. There'll have to be an assessment, maybe that's when I'll find out if there's help available. *shrugs*

Got the towels mostly dried, it didn't actually rain just kept looking like it would. There was a brisk breeze though so that helped. They'll have to go out again tomorrow.

Ticking clock makes me feel less alone in an odd way. it's nice.

[lexxiescott]

I hope there is help for you because it's really rather stupid to expect anyone to manage that much alone. When you're not healthy yourself, the stress of it is just that much worse. I know I wouldn't be able to deal. I'll keep my fingers crossed you can get some help in.

Breezes are good. :) We're on a warming trend here. 68F today heading back up to 90F by Wednesday. I really am looking forward to fall. At least it won't be so dang hot.

They're good company. Ticking is so soothing.

[bk_forever]

I'm hoping for an indian summer - we could use some more warmer weather, it's too cold at the moment. September should be warmer.

I hope I can get some sort of help, just have to wait and see.

[lexxiescott]

Maybe some of our hot weather will make it over to you. I'll say this, I'm not looking forward to the winter systems down off of Alaska. brrrr.

Fingers crossed. :)

[bk_forever]

So cold today - it's warmer outside! Clouds keep passing over and blocking out the sun though. I need to feel warm. I'm wrapped up in woolies, it's ridiculous!

[lexxiescott]

Oh, good grief. Sounds like fall might have come way too early for you. Stay warm.
*hugs*

[bk_forever]

The rest of the week is supposed to be better... I think...

I'm well wrapped up, three pairs of socks to keep my feet warm. At least I managed to get the washing in before the torrential downpour, so it's mostly dry. Depending on the weather, I might put another load on tomorrow, if it looks like I can get this lot finished off.

Managed 4 drabbles this week =)

[lexxiescott]

Hope it is. Some sun and warm would be a big help, I think. :)

Those downpours are sneaky things. I'm glad you got the wash in before it hit. That wouldn't have been too good to have it washed again by the rain.

Yay, that's awesome. :)

[bk_forever]

Yeah, I would have been cross if the half drt=y washing ended up soaked again. I forgot the tortoises though, so they got rather wet and had to be dried later.

[lexxiescott]

I think it that happened to me - if I was going through half of what you're handling - I would have started yelling at the clouds.

I guess they don't need a bath now, but couldn't have been fun for them.

[bk_forever]

They were cold so I put them in their box for the night. I wonder what it's like to be cold-blooded... Do they feel cold the way we do or do they not really feel it, just get sleepy.

[lexxiescott]

That's an interesting question. I would think they just get really slow and sleepy, but it's possible they feel it on a deeper level. I have to admit I've never really thought about it.

[bk_forever]

Neither have I until now. I'm just thinking weird thoughts at the moment, lol!

[lexxiescott]

lol, weird thoughts are the most fun sometimes. :)