Life Sucks

[bk_forever]

My life sucks. Tomorrow is mum's 80th birthday and I've got one of my 3-day migraines.

My sister, niece and nephew will be driving up tomorrow, and my boyfriend will also be here. They are all classed as guests (even though my sister lived here for 20 years), so despite my migraine, I will be expected to serve food and drinks to everyone, as well as doing all my usual jobs of feeding and cleaning out the pets, cleaning out the fire and getting the coal in. No doubt I'll also be expected to do all the washing up generated by six people. I can't even go to my room and rest in the quiet as my room is still uninhabitable and there's nowhere to comfortably sit. Not that there will be anywhere for me to sit downstairs either. There will be six people and only seating for four, so my sister will no doubt take my chair, simply because she's older and visiting. I'll have to stand or sit on the floor.

My boyfriend has bought mum a birthday cake, which was nice of him, but it's chocolate. He knows I can't have chocolate because it gives me migraines. So tomorrow, everyone but me will be eating birthday cake. =(

In two weeks, it'll be my birthday, but no one will visit for that and I'll still have to do all my jobs, and since my migraines are every two weeks, I'll probably have a migraine then too. And I still have to sleep on the lounge floor, like I have been for at least 6 weeks. I'm fed up!

Comments

[usakiwigirl.livejournal.com]

Ah, sweetheart, is it still not all fixed? I really feel for you. I hope it is not as bad as that - your sister should help, she is her mother as well and just because she is not living there and technically visiting, she should still lend a helping hand. The house is obviously not in any condition to be run by just one person. Help is essential. I hope you get it. And I hope you get a cake you can eat for your birthday :)

[bk_forever]

Sadly (or perhaps luckily for you) you don't know my sister. She won't lift a finger. She'll be here for mum, will sit and talk to mum, and I'll be shut out, just the same as I always am when she visits. My sister is the favoured daughter, despite all the times she's let mum down, not phoned or visited when she said she would etc. I'm little more than the housemaid, expected to do everything no matter how I feel. And I don't even have a room of my own now, and won't until the ceiling is fixed. We're due yet another person coming to look at my ceiling soon, and I'm still trying to clear my room, but the storage unit is practically full to bursting and there's still a load of stuff to move. I feel like an outcast in my own home. *sigh*

[toshiani007.livejournal.com]

My friend, I wish I live closer to help you. I hope everything goes well. Give your mom a hug from me. I'm sendig you good vibes, I hope your migraine goes away. Take care. Todo mi cariño. ***hugs***

[bk_forever]

Thanks, I need all the good vibes I can get! Tomorrow is going to be a nightmare, with everyone enjoying themselves while I get to be the unpaid, largely ignored help as usual. My online friends are all that's keeping me going these days, don't like to think where I'd be without you! *hugs tight*

[toshiani007.livejournal.com]

We love and support you. I'm going to be thinking about you tomorrow and sending positive vibes.

[bk_forever]

*hugs* Thankyou =)

[sassysailorgirl.livejournal.com]

Oh, honey! You've had such a rough of it. It really isn't fair. The stupid bloody Universe needs to go & torment someone who deserves it!

Is there anything that the doctors can do to help you with the migraines? I've only ever experienced one of those, but, damn! Not cool.

Tell ya what. Next February, I'll be in Cardiff. How 'bout we meet up and do something special for your birthday? And this year, I'm sending you a card to help brighten up your otherwise kinda cloudy little corner of the world!

Just hang in there! *hugs you tight*

[bk_forever]

Oh, that sounds lovely, I wish I could but I don't actually go anywhere - I'm not completely housebound, but I have so few good days that I rarely get out of the house and travelling is out of the question because of my agoraphobia. I don't even get to go to the cinema or stuff like that. *sigh* Doctors haven't been helpful with any of my health problems, so I've just had to learn to live with them =( I'm practically a recluse, which is why the internet and the friends I've made mean so much to me! *Hugs you tight* You're such a special person!

The universe just seems to like kicking people when they're down at the moment - not just me, seems half of Australia is taking a far worse battering. It's good to be able to grumble and know there are people who care though. It gets us all through the rough times in our lives!

Once you're in Cardiff though, I'd definitely love to be able to chat to you on the phone!

[jedi-harkness.livejournal.com]

*hugs you tight* Happy Birthday to your mum. Sorry you're feeling so miserable... :(

[bk_forever]

Thanks! Everything is just getting on top of me and everyone around me is just being thoughtless and unhelpful. I can't seem to get a break! Even my new glasses, which have been ready since mid December, are still sitting at the optitians because I haven't been able to go and have them fitted and adjusted. I was so excited when I chose them, but I haven't been out since, what with all the disasters, bad weather, more disasters, health issues and everything I have to pack up and clear to get my bedroom ceiling fixed.
I was hoping 2011 would be a better year for me, but so far... not so much =(

[jedi-harkness.livejournal.com]

I hope today wasn't completely horrible for you... *sending more hugs*

[bk_forever]

Not as bad as I expected, thankfully! They all went off out shopping, leaving me in peace, and bought sausage and chips and stuff back for their dinner, so there wasn't a lot of extra washing up. They ate their food while I put the shopping away, and amazingly no one pinched my chair! And of course it was great to see my nephew and niece, I love them to bits and get on with them much better than with their mother!

*hugs you back* Thanks For everything! My friends keep me sane - I can honestly say I've never had so many friends in my entire life, it makes me feel warm and mushy inside! =) It's a very good feeling!

[jedi-harkness.livejournal.com]

I hope your mum enjoyed her day and I'm glad you were left in peace at least for a little while. :)

I heartily understand what you're saying: Signing up with LJ has been one of the best decisions of my life and like you I've never had so many friends at one time before. It is a really great feeling when they reach out with a virtual hug or leave nice comments on posts, etc. :D

[bk_forever]

Yeah, I think mum enjoyed her birthday, though she didn't want my sister to leave. They had an hour's drive to get home though, and it was already dark when they left.

Being part of the LJ (and Dreamwidth) community has really given me so much, I find it hard to remember what life was like before. I know I was lonely most of the time, but all that's changed, I've met such wonderful people and I feel like I belong somewhere finally. No matter how much my life sucks at times, it's better for knowing the people I've met!

[jedi-harkness.livejournal.com]

The same goes for me! :)

[angelsphonebox.livejournal.com]

oh hun, I'm so sorry that things are so crapppy. You really deserve a huge load of good luck to come your way. No one deserves it more. I'm sending you a big hug and all the good karma I can to you. I really hope that something wonderful and amazing happens for you soon.

[bk_forever]

Thanks, hun. Today wasn't as bad as I expected - I just finished the washing up, a few more mugs and more cutlery than usual but they picked up sausage and chips while they were out, so there wweren't piles of plates, and my sister had a cake made for mum that doesn't have chocolate in it so I can have a slice of that. Plus they all went shopping and I was left in peace for a couple of hours. Then my nephew went to sleep on the lounge floor - he seemed to find it much more comfortable than I do! Not a wonderful day, but not too bad all things considered!

*hugs you back* Thanks for the good karma - I'm sure it helped!