HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!!

[bk_forever]

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TODAY TO MY WONDERFUL FRIEND

lexxiescott

I HOPE TODAY IS A HAPPY ONE FOR YOU DESPITE WORK!

*Big Birthday Hugs*

May the coming year be your best and happiest ever!

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[lexxiescott]

aw, thank you.
*glomp hugs*

[bk_forever]

*Glomps back*

Hope there was some niceness along with the other.

[lexxiescott]

It contained some chocolate cream pie, which is always a nice treat. :)

[bk_forever]

Yay!

I'm hoping to post (or have Collin post) your card tomorrow, along with a small gift I got for you at the beginning of the year. Hope you'll like them. I meant to put a note in the parcel, but I forgot =/

(My head is all over the place due to anxiety attacks, which I'm struggling with. Just started taking anti-anxiety medication this morning so I'll see if tat helps at all.)

[lexxiescott]

Aw, thank you. :) I'm sure I'll love them.

Fingers and toes crossed the meds help you out. Never had an anxiety attack, but I can't imagine they're anything easy to live with, and heavens knows you've got enough on your plate already. This is the last bloody thing you need.

I think this story will make you smile. I was speaking with a co-worker that's either English or Canadian (I think English) and I made a comment about going on holiday. He asked me where I was from and I told him it's just because I watch more BBC than I do anything domestic. I told him I get odd looks when I ask which lift we're going to take. He just laughed and said he'd be happy to help translate and left the office. Then he turned back and said that he had one and asked me if I knew what a nappy was. *rolls eyes* Hospital people. I told him it's a diaper and he looked put out. *snickers* Dennis and Robert were both laughing at this point.

[bk_forever]

*grins* You already know all the British terms, no one's gonna catch you out! ;)

I've taken two pills so far, they take a while to start working apparently, but I hope they help. I really need a break from constant anxiety and frequent panic attacks. It's exhausting and my appetite is non-existent.

I hope you will. I couldn't resist stitching the card for you!

Right, bedtime now I think.

[lexxiescott]

I certainly know the most commonly used ones, and can sometimes guess for meaning on the others.

How's the meds working?

I'm sure I'll love it. Those cards you stitch are always so awesome.

[bk_forever]

Meds aren't working out so well, I've stopped taking them. I was getting more agitated and I feel like crap, I'm looking into self-help and relaxation exercises, therapy options and stuff because I'm not coping well at all. I can barely eat at the moment, can't go out, and I'm constantly tense and stressed. Need to find ways to ease that.

Don't know how long it'll take to reach you, but hopefully not long =)

[lexxiescott]

Well, phooey. I'd hoped they would help out a little. *sighs* I'm sure you're already loaded down with crystals to help out, is there anything I can help you research? Sending constant hugs along, wish, as always, I was closer to be able to help you out.

[bk_forever]

I think I've about got everything covered crystal-wise. I was looking for blue/green smithsonite, but smithsonite in general is prohibitively expensive and the blue/green form doesn't seem to be available anywhere. Mostly it's brown. *shrugs* I'll stick with what I've got. Got a new Crazy Lace Agate - that's supposed to banish fears and clear emotional pain, which sounds like what I need. It's a gentle, silvery one =)

I'm doing better without the drugs and I'm looking up self-help advice too.

[lexxiescott]

I found what looks like blue/grey, but hoo boy, you're right enough about the price. Good grief. A gentle crystal is just what you need right now. That one sounds lovely. I'm still planning to grid my bed with some stone as soon as I have the money. Just found some lovely Zimbabwe amethyst tumblestone that's good price and really rich purple. That, citrine, and probably lapis lazuli. I haven't had any encounters with that darker energy, but I don't want to have another one. *shudders*

I'm glad you're doing better. Let me know if there's anything you need help with that's possible via computer. I know help sorting the house would be welcome.

[bk_forever]

Thanks *hugs* Sorting the house is mostly on the backburner for now, I just don't have much energy and Collin isn't helping. I tld him I wanted to hire a tree-surgeon to cut some of the height off some conifers down near the bottom of the garden, asked him if he knew of any. He turned up the next day with his chain saw and started chopping, leaving me with piles of branches that I somehow have to cut up for the garden waste bin. A tree surgeon would have taken all the rubbish with him, so now i have even more work and no enerrgy. It's taken me all week to fill the bloody bin and now it's so heavy I can hardly move it! *headdesk*

[lexxiescott]

Oh, lordy Collin. His heart is in the right place, but I do wonder at his mind. Don't suppose you have any neighborhood kids that want to earn a pound cleaning that lot up, do you? Having a professional come in would have been so much easier on everyone.

[bk_forever]

No one old enough to be safe with a pair of secateurs. the stuff has to be chopped up to go in the bin, I'vve got blisters.

Doing it this way, it'll be next year before the conifer is done instead of done in a day. I still might hire someone to do the rest of it and take it away.

[lexxiescott]

I think getting someone in to finish it up and haul it off is your best plan right now. Otherwise you're at risk for hurting yourself badly, and you need to be resting right now. How are you holding up?

[bk_forever]

It's a battle. I'm thinking depression and residual guilt over not being a good enough carer are getting tangled up with grief and anxiety and causing some psychosomatic issues. I just don't know how best to handle it all. So, crystals, relaxation exercises, stuff like that... If I was any good at meditation, that might help, but I can't seem to sit and do nothing =(

[lexxiescott]

Sounds like a lot on your mind and a mind running fifteen directions at once. What about writing everything down in a notebook? I know how scarce time is for you, but this could count as a type of therapy, and writing things down is a good way to be able to look at them from a different viewpoint.

Meditation takes a lot of time to learn. I can clear my mind easily enough, and stay still, but the moment I try to focus on anything to think about it in detail, there it goes again.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7F-F8-qHmq0

This is my favorite sound to listen to when I want to think about anything serious. Or if I want to just not think about anything at all. One reason I don't do well writing at the beach. Just make sure you don't drink a lot of water when you're listening or you'll be running off to the bathroom.

[bk_forever]

I might try writing it down on my computer, handwriting... I probably wouldn't be able to read it later, lol!

Doing a bit better today now I'm starting to understand what's going on.

Thanks for the link!

[lexxiescott]

Getting it written down is the important part. :) Give it a go, you never know what'll help until you try.

That's great news. I don't wonder if knowing the base illness isn't half the battle to recovery.

You're welcome. Hope you enjoy it. :)

[bk_forever]

I don't think it works for everyone, but it definitely seems to help me.

Been out shopping today, so I'm tired but satisfied. Even a week ago I couldn't have done that =)

[lexxiescott]

That's the most important part. Yay for being able to get to the shops. :) It's amazing how much shopping can wear you out no matter what. I hope it doesn't rebound on you in a migraine. I'll keep my fingers crossed for you.

My card and book came today. Thank you so much. The little pug is so adorable. I'm going to find a frame for him because he's too precious to put away in my card box. :) Mum tried to run off with him. And all three of us are looking forward to reading the book. Signs in English in other countries can be some of the funniest things ever.

*hugs*

[bk_forever]

The first time I read that book I laughed so hard I was crying, and it STILL makes me laugh. Thought it would give you a giggle.

I couldn't resist stitching the little pug for you. It's quite a simple design, but so cute. So glad you liked him!

I have a headache, but I'm not sure if it's my new glasses, or stress, or eating chocolate yesterday, or what o_O

[lexxiescott]

I almost dropped it in the bath a couple of times I was laughing so hard. My favorite so far is the one that says "if you think our wait staff is rude, you should see our manager". Part of me wants to make something similar to hang up in our office at the hospital. *snickers*

Oh no, I hope the headache is from the stress. Because new glasses and chocolate are too important to be causing headaches. Awesome you were able to get your new glasses. How are they working for you?

[bk_forever]

The headache is pretty bad so I've taken my glasses off and put the old ones on. Still got a bad headache though. Migrainish, I guess. Just hope it goes away soon.

I wonder if John would understand who it was referring to ;)

Glad you're enjoying the book!

[lexxiescott]

Phooey on headaches. >.< I hope it goes away soon too. I came home to a headache today, but it's stormy and there's a tropical storm about a thousand miles away that's screwing up weather patterns. If it survives until Saturday, we might have our first hurricane since moving here.

I would doubt it, he's not smart enough. *giggles*

[bk_forever]

My head's not so bad today, but the rest of me is a bit crap. I need to get my glasses adjusted, they're pinching.

Hope you don't get a hurricane!

[lexxiescott]

Isn't that the way it always goes? Hope all of you feels better here by the weekend. I've been fighting a bit of a headache for the past couple of days. Too many storms, I think.

If it survives tonight and tomorrow there's a good chance. They're getting things ready to roll out at work. Guess we'll see how it all goes.

[bk_forever]

Keeping my fingers crossed for you. Wish I could do a little magic and make the storm dissipate./ Rest while you can.