Stressed and Worried

[bk_forever]

The heading says it all really.

Now mum's gone, her will says everything is to be left half to me and half to my older sister. This includes the house. Now if my sister was any kind of a decent person, she'd be happy to let me remain in the family home. She lives 50 miles away, has her own home and a good job. I can't work because of health problems, so I have very little in the way of savings.

I was born in this house, I've never had any other home, and because of my health problems, my home has become my safe place, my sanctuary. It's everything that's familiar. I know the area, I have good neighbours who help when I need it, and all my memories of mum are here, memories that cover 53 years. Naturally, I want to stay here.

But, my sister seems to think that what I want might not be feasible. If she wants her share of the house, there's no way I can buy her out. Even if I scraped together every penny I have, I wouldn't even have a tenth of what that would cost, so now, when I'm still mourning mum, who's only been gone three weeks, I'm facing the possibility of losing my home too. My sister doesn't need the money, and I'm perfectly willing to pay all the house bills and other expenses myself. I don't want to be forced into moving to an unfamiliar area, surrounded by strangers, just because my sister wants her share of mum's estate now.

I'm scared. I don't cope well with change, so I don't know what I'm going to do. This is my home. Where will I go if I have to leave? I really don't need all this stress and worry.

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[bk_forever]

Clocks go forward tonight, so I'll lose an hour of sleep and it's really windy tonight, so that might keep me awake =(

Nuts. Sad to lose a good doctor, hope the new one turns out to be just as good!

Still playing it by ear, I'll see how I am tomorrow and decide if I'm going to try for Monday or not. I'm still feeling pretty crappy, I need time to recover. Collin has set up an appointment for someone to come and value the house so we'll know whether we have to pay inheritance tax or not. I'm hoping not. Also hoping for a low valuation. Everything is so complicated, I can understand why people often hire a lawyer to deal with probate, but that costs the earth so we don't want to go that route, especially since I don't want the house to be sold.

You should get some sleep too. I'm off to bed as soon as I get my emails finished and shut down the computer! Sweet dreams! Have fun with your writing challenge!

[lexxiescott]

That jump ahead for the clocks sucks and I hate whoever it was that thought it was a good idea.

He's from South America and has the highest ranking of any doctor in our network, so I have hopes he'll be good. I'd really rather have a female doctor, but none of them have good rankings. *shrugs* Oh well.

Having lawyers around (at least in the states) is like having ants. Never a good thing. With everything you're dealing with though, I can see where one would be a good idea though. Hope the value is low enough you don't have to pay taxes. Also low enough that maybe your sister will see that selling is not the way to get the money she seems to want so badly.

I actually slept well, but have woken up at 0303 for the past two mornings. No idea why or what has me up and I'm able to get to sleep again, but it sucks. Wish I could sleep right through.

Hope you had a good night even with everything stacked against you. I'm crystal shopping today. Hopefully I'll be able to find a few things at good deals. Friday was pay day and that's always a good day to have.

[bk_forever]

Still feeling crappy so I think I'll wait for Wednesday to go to Hope House. I need a couple more days to get over last week. Did get my hair washed, so that's one thing out of the way.

Estate agent rather than lawyer - I already have an ant problem in the kitchen, don't need lawyers too, lol!

Still heard nothing from my sister and I'm not phoning her at the moment, got enough on my plate with the benefits application.

That's an odd time to wake up, hope you sleep through tonight. I'm still not sleeping great, but at least I do sleep. It would help if I didn't have to keep getting up early to go places. I'm really hoping after Wednesday I can just stay home for a couple of weeks so I can catch my breath. I need to do a spot of cleaning before the valuation so I'm not embarrassed. Vacuum the stairs, landing and my room, clean the bathroom a bit...

Have fun with the crystal shopping!

[lexxiescott]

I don't know why washing your hair is so exhausting, but it totally is. I did mine today too. It's always good to get it out of the way.


https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=z7ap6-e3mVg

Have you seen this bit of Fry and Laurie? It deals with Estate Agents.

I'm glad you haven't heard anything from your sister. I know the stress of waiting isn't good, but you're definitely dealing with enough right now. You don't need that on top of everything else.

Yeah, it really is, and I wish I knew what the heck was going on. Gonna suck if i do it tomorrow because my alarm goes off at 0500 so I can get to work. Not much sleeping time left there.

Good luck with the cleaning. That's probably my least favorite thing to do.

The shop was closed. >.< Only online crystal shop I know of so I guess I have to wait. Oh well.

[bk_forever]

Darn, sorry about the lack of crystal shopping =(

I'll check out the link in a minute, thanks, I could do with something to smile at.

Ironically, I wrote 303 words today o_O I think it's catching!

I don't even have all that much hair, but I have to practically stand on my head to wash it so I have to do it before breakfast, and it usually makes my back hurt too. all that bending isn't good.

I'd better get to bed soon, I'm beat. Haven't even done much today.

Oh, one nice thing, Criminal Minds has come to freeview! No idea which season it is, but I'm enjoying it so much. Also been watching MASH re-runs. =)

[lexxiescott]

One of these days. :) I think the fluorite is helping more than anything else right now. Really glad I thought of that one.

Hope you like it. Those two are always so awesome together.

Hoo boy, that's a little freaky. *grins* Hopefully it's not catching and this is the last either of us hear about it.

Bending is never good. >.<

Hope you can get some sleep tonight. I know I'm heading that way here pretty quick. Just have to put my uniform together for tomorrow.

Oh, yay!! That's awesome. And MASH too. Sweet. I always enjoyed the ones with Trapper more than BJ, for some reason, but there's a few with BJ that make me giggle for the whole show. The first one that comes to mind there starts out with bad puns and goes to a movie that keeps breaking so they have to come up with other things to do while it gets fixed. Really a fun episode.

[bk_forever]

I came in on the re-runs when they were already into BJ's time, it's just past Radar leaving after his Uncle dies. There are so many episodes. even when I used to watch it, I didn't see it from the start It's just a pleasure to re-visit =)

Criminal Minds are all new episodes to me, so that's awesome!

I did sleep, but got way too hot at one point and had to throw the covers off and grab my fire agate. weird night and weird dreams =(

I ended up forgetting to watch the clip, so I'll do that now!

Have a good day (and week) at work!

[lexxiescott]

I think Trapper was only in the first two or two and a half seasons. Maybe three. BJ was there for most of the run. That's one of the things about older shows, it doesn't really matter where you come in watching them, the hints are there to pick up what you need. Such great shows.

Oh, that is awesome. :) I'm debating going back and watching some of the early ones with Rossi just because. Then again, I've started a new CM piece that has Hotch breaking up with Reid who then runs to Gideon in Miami. I've paired Gideon with Horatio Caine and am leaning towards maybe a Reid/Rossi pairing at the end of this thing. Then I've got another idea for Reid/Rossi. Not sure why, but CM plot bunnies are hitting me hard.

Sounds like a rough night. I woke up at 0300, which is slightly better than 0303. Still not sure what's up with that. I do know I'm sleeping better with the fluorite there, so it's totally staying with me. Hope tonight is better for you. Is it too early to let the fire go out for the year?

Hope you enjoy the clip. Those two together always make me smile. I made the mistake of trying to explain the clip to Doug today and he didn't get it. Might have to show it to him tomorrow.

For the way it started, it can only get better. *sighs* Meetings with the boss are never fun.

[bk_forever]

Here's hoping the week will improve for you.

I did enjoy the clip, I needed the laugh, those two are so great!

Way too soon to let the fire out, it's rainy and cold, and there's still fros some mornings. Two more months before I can let it out, probably. Last night's overheating was mostly because I'm still a bit under the weather. That and the high winds making the fire burn hotter. Happens sometimes.

I only saw the first two seasons of CM, so most episodes will be new to me. I don't know how many seasons there've been, but this one has a new dark-haired female character, whose name escapes me. She just joined the team.

I'm off to bed soon. Hope you sleep through tonight.

[lexxiescott]

It's the only way it can go. I really hate how petty and mean the managers are at work. It just makes life harder for everyone around them. I made John laugh today when I told him I wanted to take duct tape to my next teaching session. I think he knew it was to gag the idiot manager that kept interrupting me when I was trying to teach.

Those two together just rock. I love their shirt sketch comedy.

Frost. Brrrrrrr. Yeah, way too early. I couldn't remember when you let it go out last year. Hopefully tonight is a bit cooler for you so you sleep better. I've still got my goose down out, but it'll be back in the closet end of the week. It's getting hot way too early this year, but they're split on if it means a more active hurricane season, or a less active one. Meh. Guess we'll find out soon enough. Starts May 1st.

If they aren't in their tenth season by now, I'd be surprised. I think the girl is Emily Prentiss. I quite like her, though she annoys me a LOT in some episodes. I also like Rossi a heck of a lot more than I like Gideon, but that could just be more chance of character development. You'll have to let me know what you think. :-)

I'm heading to bed too. Typing this in my tablet, which is always interesting. Have a good day tomorrow!

[bk_forever]

Some people just deserve to be duct-taped!

Well, I didn't sleep better last night, I was awake every hour because of gale force winds waking me up and it's still blowing like crazy out there. Then something went 'Beep Beep' this morning at about 7.10 and woke me up (or I dreamed it) and I couldn't get back to sleep. The only thing I could think of was the carbon monoxide detector above my bed, but I tested that and the sound was completely wrong, it gives of short, high chirps, while the beeps I heard were longer and lower. Besides, if it was in pre-alarm mode the chirps would be every 30 seconds, and it was just two beeps once. I don't like mystery beeps!

I like Gideon, despite how grim and emotionless he often seems, but then I love Mandy Patinkin, have done forever. Reid is my favourite character though. Last ep I saw was one where police arrested Derek Morgan as a suspect in the murders of three teenage boys over a period of 15 years.

I vote for a less active hurricane season. Do you think that'll influence it?

I wish you a stress free day! I don't seem to be getting one.

[lexxiescott]

This one definitely does. Around the head, mouth, body, to her chair and then rolled out to the pond. *sighs*

Oh, for crying out loud. Stupid wind. It's not supposed to be blowing that hard at your place. Hope it settles back down for you. More than a day of high wind is not fun at all.

Weird on the beeps. Could it have come from outside somehow and you heard it though your sleep as being inside? Thank heavens it's not the CO detectors again. That's the last thing you need.

Gideon always makes me smile when he is so deep and it's like no one but Reid really knows what he's talking about. One of my favorite scenes is from the pilot when Gideon quotes someone as saying "try again, fail again. Fail better." Morgan looks at Reid, who cites the source. Then Morgan says, "try not. Do or do not." Gideon looks at Reid who says, "Yoda." That one little bit always makes me giggle.

That's a sad episode for Morgan. I wanted to go cuddle him after that one.

We can hope. :) I'll join you in that vote, and I know a lot of my friends will too.

No stress free day for me either. John is in a mood and is taking it out on Sherre, which is making her grumpy, and harder to work with. Doug is also frustrated and, because his schedule changed, is going to look for another job. *sighs* All the good people leave.

[bk_forever]

John needs to get his head out of his ass and make sure people can keep to the schedules that suit them. THEN he might actually be able to keep the good people instead of constantly losing them!

I remember that scene =)

Wind isn't as bad as it was, but it's still gusty. At least it didn't bring pouring rain today the way it has the last two days. Even so, today has been frustrating. I took my benefits form to Hope House, but they can't help and are passing me back to the Citizens Advice Bureau. I only have until the 18th to get it submitted, so once again, I'm not getting the help I need and I'll have to go out yet again. All this going out is draining my energy reserves, I'm so exhausted. And I bet my sister wants to do a load of sorting over the Easter weekend. When am I going to get a break?

[lexxiescott]

I heard about the newest stupidity today. The hospital is building a free-standing ER/rehab facility. The free-standing part just means no hospital there. We all knew that security was going to staff it, once it's finished, but Sherre told me today that there's only going to be one officer per shift at this place. Most of our trouble - our real trouble - calls come from the ER. I told her today, and I stand by this - someone is going to get killed with that staffing plan in place.

As for John, I don't think he cares. He won't back us up, he never stands up for any of us whenever there's a complaint, and he takes credit for any paperwork that Sherre, Ray, or I do for him. *sighs* I had worse bosses at the casino, but still. The man needs to retire and that's flat.

It's such a cute scene. Really sets the stage well for their interactions. :)

Thank heavens for lack of pouring rain. That would have been lousy to be out in. Wind by itself isn't horrible, just annoying. As for the forms, good grief. Hope the Bureau can help you out with it. Too bad it's not something you can get help with over the phone so you wouldn't have to go back out again.

There's probably no way you can leave your sister to the heavy sorting and work on papers or something that would let you sort sitting down, is there? Some way that you're not going to tire yourself out more when you don't need to be? Heck, I'll keep my fingers crossed that she doesn't show over the weekend. That's stress you really don't need right now.

[bk_forever]

ONE security officer? How is one person supposed to restrain someone by themselves? And what if two incidents happen at the same time? Seriously, that has not been thought through by anyone with an ounce of common sense. At least two people need to be on shift at all times, I would think.

Hmmmm, I'm starting to think John-shaped voodoo doll and some strategically placed pins to encourage him to retire!

The wind was bitterly cold though, and fighting through it to get back to my car wasn't fun even though it was only a few hundred yards. We've got Easter coming up which means nothing will get gone re the form until after and my deadline is the 18th. I can see me filling it in myself and then being told I don't qualify because if things aren't worded exactly right the government don't grant benefits. There are loads of people claiming benefits fraudulently, but it's the people who really need them who have to jump through hoops and fight for every penny.

Honestly, I don't trust my sister not to throw out stuff that's important to me, or actually belongs to me. I need to be right there during any sorting to make sure she doesn't decide to make off with my property. Haven't heard anything from her yet, but there's still time.

I've got the beginnings of a migraine - unsurprisingly - so that's not going to help!

End of the week is nearly here, I hope you're getting the weekend off.

[lexxiescott]

Apparently the plan is to hire large men, retired cops, who can work solo. *sighs* You can tell this plan has been put in place by men because no one is asking the questions you just asked. This is why there should always be a couple of women in planning for things like this. *snorts* Sherre and I both have asked similar questions, but no one is listening to us.

Four more years and he'll retire (again). I just hope we all can make it.

*winces* Bitter wind sucks so bad. Hope it's warming up a little for you. Good luck with Easter. I honestly keep forgetting about it so I'm always surprised when someone mentions it.

It's the same problem here because of people that want to try and make easy money off the government and screw everything up for the people that actually need the benefits. Good luck getting help with the wording on the forms. It's too bad there's not a help line set up for it. But, then again, I suppose that would take logic to figure out that it would be a good thing to have, which is why there isn't one.

That's a point. Maybe you'll get lucky and she'll stay gone this weekend. We can hope. Everything but my broken toe is crossed that you have the weekend to yourself.

Not a surprise at all that. I feel like I'm trying to get a headache. I might go to bed early tonight. I know part of it is work because having my hair up for nine hours doesn't help anything, but I'm not cutting it off. Hope your migraine goes away quickly and doesn't set up shop for a couple of days.

Yep, weekend off this week, and a three day weekend next week because of my final doctor appointment. Then it'll be back on full duty and I'll be off (we think) Friday and Saturday because Doug wants weekends off, and this is a compromise he and his family can live with until season starts up again. I don't really care which days I work, so I suggested this as a way for Doug to be able to spend time with his family.

[bk_forever]

I'm sure Doug appreciates it!

Migraine is into its second day so I feel like crap. Going to hopefully relax today. My sister hasn't phoned so maybe she's working over Easter. I can hope.

Helplines probably wouldn't be practical because each person has different health problems that affect them different ways, standard answers won't work but there should be more availability for people to help fill in the forms correctly.

Four years is a long time, I guess all you can do is endure his mood swings and keep doing what you're doing.

Women have more common sense than men, there should always be women involved in any kind of planning.

[lexxiescott]

I know he does. He's brought me apple juice the past two mornings. :)

Hope the migraine has eased back on you, and your sister hasn't made an appearance. I'm really holding out hope that she's not going to show this weekend so you can rest.

That's the truth. Standard answers wouldn't work, you're right about that, but I bet there's standard wording that they look for and a helpline would at least be able to help with that. Or a web page. Something so people aren't left struggling to get these forms done and in so they can get the help they need.

The sad part is, John is still a better manager than anyone I had at the casino for a manager. I'll survive because I manage to keep things going at a pretty even keel all the time, but it won't always be easy. There are so many days I just want to smack him.

That's the truth, and I really hope no one loses their life before the Admin idiots work that out. *sighs*

[bk_forever]

An advice webpage would be useful. So naturally there will never be one. *rolls eyes*

My head is much better today, but I've still been relaxing. Not good to overdo things right after a bad migraine as they can come back if you're not careful.

Still nothing from my sister. I don't know if she's waiting for me to call her, but if she is, she'll be waiting a while. I've got a lot on my plate just now and I'm still very tired.

Well, I guess if he's better that the casino people that's at least something. Still plenty of room for improvement though.

[lexxiescott]

Yeah, true enough. *sighs*

Glad your head is doing better. I've worked out that my headache is being caused by my teeth, which means something is screwed up in there. I just don't want to go to the dentist, so I'm trying to live with the pain.

Now we hope that she doesn't show up tomorrow. *crosses fingers* You just need some time to get things done around the house before you have to deal with her.

Oh yeah, lots and lots of room for improvement with him. If nothing else, a little back-up with other departments would be good.

[bk_forever]

I doubt she'll show up without phoning first to let me know. I can do without her at the moment though, I have things to do before the house valuation on Wednesday and I don't want to feel rushed.

Oh no, not more tooth trouble! I hope it'll settle on its own. It's usually my headaches that make my teeth hurt, not the other way around.

I slept badly last night, had weird and creepy nightmares o_O

[lexxiescott]

That's something, I guess. You don't have to worry about her just showing up on you. Heaven knows you've got enough going on to be worrying about her showing up without warning. Good luck with the valuation.

When they did the root canal they sanded down another crown that i was already having issues with, so I think they probably ruined what was there. *sighs* I wish people would listen to the patients. I'm okay right now, but I haven't really had anything to eat yet either. Not sure how I'm going to feel after food.

Like I said in the other post, phooey on nightmares. Those just suck so bad, especially when they're weird and creepy. That's not what you need at all.

[bk_forever]

Yeah, can definitely do without them.

The migraine came back. That sometimes happens when I've over-exerted myself. I get one, get rid of it, have one day without and then another three-day ordeal =(

That doesn't sound good. I'll keep my fingers crossed that eating won't aggravate anything. You need to eat to keep your energy levels up. *hugs*

[lexxiescott]

Well, phooey. Hope it doesn't hang around for too long. Seems like if you can get rid of the blasted thing once, you shouldn't have to worry about it coming back on you again.

I'm actually doing good today. Probably finally caught up on sleep and managed to only eat soft stuff, so the headache/toothache isn't too bad. Of course, tomorrow is back to work, and I'm senior officer on shift tomorrow so that means end of shift crap is my responsibility. Heaven forbid either of the guys help me with any of it. *sighs*

*hugs*

[bk_forever]

Yeah, I hate when they boomerang right back, although the second pass is usually not as bad. Yesterday was rough, but hopefully today will be better. Feeling really tired and drained though.

Glad you're doing better, I hope the week won't be too stressful. It's no fun being stuck with he burden of responsibility.

Last night I got to see the pilot and first episode of MASH. Now I remember what Trapper looks like!