Stressed and Worried

[bk_forever]

The heading says it all really.

Now mum's gone, her will says everything is to be left half to me and half to my older sister. This includes the house. Now if my sister was any kind of a decent person, she'd be happy to let me remain in the family home. She lives 50 miles away, has her own home and a good job. I can't work because of health problems, so I have very little in the way of savings.

I was born in this house, I've never had any other home, and because of my health problems, my home has become my safe place, my sanctuary. It's everything that's familiar. I know the area, I have good neighbours who help when I need it, and all my memories of mum are here, memories that cover 53 years. Naturally, I want to stay here.

But, my sister seems to think that what I want might not be feasible. If she wants her share of the house, there's no way I can buy her out. Even if I scraped together every penny I have, I wouldn't even have a tenth of what that would cost, so now, when I'm still mourning mum, who's only been gone three weeks, I'm facing the possibility of losing my home too. My sister doesn't need the money, and I'm perfectly willing to pay all the house bills and other expenses myself. I don't want to be forced into moving to an unfamiliar area, surrounded by strangers, just because my sister wants her share of mum's estate now.

I'm scared. I don't cope well with change, so I don't know what I'm going to do. This is my home. Where will I go if I have to leave? I really don't need all this stress and worry.

Comments

[wavingkilts.livejournal.com]

Indeed but still the whole wait and see things is horrible in it's self you know? :( x well at least she let you have some say! After all she's your mum too!

[bk_forever]

And I'm the one who was with mum every day, dealing with everything without any days off, no matter how I felt, while my sister visited a couple of times a year.

[wavingkilts.livejournal.com]

Exactly you took it on! You looked after her and well it's only right you have as much say as her and really it's been your home for years so really she's got to give you some thought :(

[bk_forever]

You'd think so, but I doubt it'll work like that. It probably wouldn't even cross her mind that I have nowhere else to go and no money to pay for anywhere else either. I hope the charity I'm calling tomorrow will be able to help.

[wavingkilts.livejournal.com]

I hope so too! I hope someone can help you out if things don't go well with your sister and the house and things! I just hope you don't have to give it up!

[bk_forever]

It would break my heart to leave here. My memory isn't good, but everywhere I look in this house there are memories of my childhood, my family, my friends, my pets, and most of all mum. Away from here, those memories will fade to nothing, and I'll have nothing to take their place. Just emptiness and loss.

[wavingkilts.livejournal.com]

Wait and see if someone can give you any help yeah? It may come to nothing... Or someone can help you! I understand that... We sold our old house... Tucker and Lexi and all our other past animals are all still there! They've changed the entire thing *sigh* it hurts because we had so many memories and everything else! Driving passed it when I was with my dad... Broke my heart it really did because that was the house I grew up in.

Believe me when I say I know how you feel *hugs*

[bk_forever]

Thanks *hugs*

It's just too much to take on top of losing mum. I promised mum that I'd be okasy, but now I don't know if I will. I don't think I'll ever feel happy or safe again.

[wavingkilts.livejournal.com]

You never know what's going to happen until it does *sigh* I'm not going to say it's going to be okay because I don't know what your sisters like. Right now though? You will be! Just keep yourself as occupied as possible yes? When the time comes? I don't know <3 I'm always here and so are your other friends here I'm sure <3

[bk_forever]

There doesn't seem any point in keeping 'busy'. I'm doing things out of habit, because there are chores to be done, but I just feel cold and empty. There's nothing to look forward to except more of the same.

[wavingkilts.livejournal.com]

I'm sorry sweetie :( you don't deserve all of this crap you're a lovely person and I know I don't know you in person but really you're lovely and you got me into all of this but I love it! Plus you've helped me through things and I wanna be there for you too!

Everyone needs someone there to help them through x

[bk_forever]

I always try to be there and support my friends, and I'm grateful that my friends here do the same when I'm the one needing support. I just wish I could find some kind of hope. I know wherever she is, mum must be furious. She trusted my sister to look out for me.