One Year On

[bk_forever]

It's been a year since mum passed away, a year of sadness, stress, worry and health problems, but also a year of great friendships, new challenges, and an awful lot of writing. Last year alone I wrote 303,140 words!

I've learned a lot in the past year about what I'm capable of achieving when I try. I've discovered that living alone, while it can be lonely at times, is also okay. In some ways, I never really feel that alone because everywhere I look are reminders of mum. She and my dad moved into this house a couple of months before I was born, I've lived my whole life here, and while not all the memories are good, most are.

I still miss mum every day, there are so often things that I wish I could tell her or show her, just to see the look on her face. I tell her anyway, because who knows, maybe she can still hear and see.

Life goes on though. I promised her that I would be okay, and despite everything, I'm keeping that promise with the help of my friends.

I don't know what the next year will bring, but I want to thank all my many friends here online for your support and friendship over the past year. You helped me get through some very difficult times and I can't thank you enough.

So here's to another year of friendship; hopefully the coming year will be happier and less stressful for us all - I know I'm not the only one who's had a rough time over the past twelve months. But if we can find at least one thing each day to be happy about, we'll be okay. Sometimes one happy thing is all that's needed, so I wish you all a year full of happy things. *hugs*

Love you all!

BK

Comments

[akawho.livejournal.com]

I am so glad you are doing so well. I too am living alone now since my Dad passed last November, and hope I do as well as you after a year. *hugs*

[bk_forever]

I'm so sorry for your loss, I know how it feels.

Being alone is tough, but you will get through it. I'm not sure it really gets easier, you just get used to it until it feels normal. I'm always here if you need someone to talk to, about anything. Just try to remember the good times. I still talk to mum all the time because it still feels like she's here. *hugs*

[lil-1337.livejournal.com]

*hugs* I still think of and talk to my mother and she's been gone for a long time. I'm glad you doing okay and taking care of yourself.

[bk_forever]

Thank you. Yes, I'm doing okay. Mum will always be with me in spirit, I think that must be true of all mums *hugs*

[owensheart.livejournal.com]

Im glad you are doing well, remember our loved ones dont leave us they are always in our hearts.

[bk_forever]

Yes, and I take comfort from that. I carry mum that way wherever I go.

Thank you!

[scripsi.livejournal.com]

*hugs*

[bk_forever]

Thank you *hugs*

[black59.livejournal.com]

me too!!
BIG HUGS

I live with my mother who is 90 years old.
In the house that my father chose and built there a little over thirty years. He died shortly after.


I try not to think too much but I know that someday, so far away, she will leave ...
I'm lucky to have my brothers and sisters all around, but I'm afraid of my reaction and life after.

Anyway, I am convinced that my father is never far away, so hopefully think the same!

[bk_forever]

Thank you *hugs back* Losing parents is so hard, but they are always with us inn our hearts. I hope your mother will be with you for a long time. 90 is a very good age.

It gets easier, I think, over time. Or I hope it will.