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Last week must have been Angst Week! I don't know if this week's fic will be more cheerful or not, though I suspect not... I'm blaming my choices on the dreary, cold weather!

Okay, only one fic this week, but the chapters are relatively long and the whole fic weighs in at around 45,000 words.

Potentiality (Or: How I Learned To Loathe The Quantum Bomb) is by [livejournal.com profile] bjewelled and is yet another fic from 2008 - August this time. It's eight chapters and is Ianto-centric, which is always a plus for me!

Summary: Somewhere between “Countrycide” and “Captain Jack Harkness”, Ianto Jones went from hardly knowing how to hold a gun to be willing and able to use it. How did he get there, and what did he have to sacrifice in the process?

Sounds like a lot of Ianto-angst can be expected!

Part 1 is here: http://bjewelled.livejournal.com/40846.html and parts are linked.

Short but sweet post from me this week! Happy reading, everyone!




Date: 2012-07-16 03:57 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] too-beauty.livejournal.com
hope you have nothing serious!
cold weather? aren't you supposed to be in summer or am I confused?

get well soon! and an extra big hug from our commomn friend!!!!

M

Date: 2012-07-16 04:52 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] too-beauty.livejournal.com
hhahahahaha! weather is just as crazy as people! we are under a polar wave in Buenos Aires, we had -2°C this morning at six am, hopefully I am on holidays for two weeks due to the winter recess so I am planning to spend the less possible outside the house :)

take care!

Date: 2012-07-18 07:38 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] debmommy22.livejournal.com
Actually, this fic sounds very interesting to me. They never did explore how Ianto went from Coffee boy to well...brave team member. We saw him finally shoot someone in CJH. Not sure I should say who though I know most everyone has probably seen the shows more than once if they are like me.

I'm so sorry you are sick!!! I was worried on my last post to you when you thought you were coming down with something. I hope you are ok. Is it a cold or flu? I hope nothing too awful though the common cold can make me feel like death. :/

Feel better soon!
*Sending you tons of our "hot" 100 degree weather* lol!
Actually, it has cooled down the last 2 weeks because it has mostly rained. We had several very hot weeks in a row. I didn't want to go outside, you could cut the air with a knife, it was so heavy.

{{warm snuggly hugs}}
Deb. :D
Edited Date: 2012-07-18 07:40 am (UTC)

Part 1

Date: 2012-07-18 08:35 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] debmommy22.livejournal.com
I'm so glad the warm snuggly hugs helped! I'm sorry it is still so rainy and awful there. Our weather is weird. It is sunny and very hot part of the day, then we get thunderstorms. We needed the rain though two weeks of rain can get old. It depends though. One night I really enjoyed listening to it fall, good sleep weather....and the air sometimes smells so nice after a good rain. *blabbering on again*

Another migraine! Great! NOT. I'm so sorry. Well you need your cross stich. It makes you feel good and you are very good at making them. I would have done the same thing.

Oh, I know how sad you must feel about NCIS. I felt that way our out last show of the season too. We pretty much know someone died, we love and I think the first show in the fall is going to have me crying my eyes out. I can't wait to see it though. I am just so in love with that show right now. :) I wish we were on the same season so we could talk about the season finale, well of season 9 where we are at. We can talk about yours! lol! We can talk about your last two shows. I will see if my memory kicks in as to where you are. I keep thinking, you might be just one season behind us which would put you at S-8. You said Tim McGee is super skinny?...then it is 8 for sure. We finished season 9 so we will start 10 in the fall. I wonder when season 9 will start for you? Do they have a schedule of when it will be shown?

continued on next post!....they cut me again! Blabber mouth, Manic/depressant person I am!!!=P LOL!
Edited Date: 2012-07-18 08:40 pm (UTC)

Re: Part 1

Date: 2012-07-20 03:37 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] debmommy22.livejournal.com
Oh yes! That is one of my favorite episodes!...maybe because it is so emotional, oh and the hug in the elavator. Yes I have never seen Ziva like that, crying on Tony's shoulder, and you finally got to see the scene between McGee and Abby I was wanting you to see. Do you think he was was trying to tell Abby he cared for her more deeply than just a friend? I thought he was though I know the hug was a comfort hug because they were all scared of ending up like Franks. (see icon) lol! I thought that was in the Season we just watched which was season 9, but then again we watched them back to back so I maybe wrong. Season 8 and 9 almost seemed like one season to me. Well I will know when you see the last show of the season. Let me know how it ends and then I can say more without getting into trouble, spoiling anything for you I mean. lol! Oh, I cried too. It was a really good episode.

YAY! You won on ebay! I'm so glad! :D

I hope your weather is better next week and I hope you felt better today.

My day sucked, what's new. Oh well, more lip swelling and itching welts just from taking Advil this time, but I should have known better. I took Oxycodone last night and got itching and welts so I decided I better stop taking it again. I thought Advil would be ok, but evidentialy taking most anything except Benadryl and Ativan is off-limits when I am still having the welts. I'm swearing off everything again for a few days, maybe a week, and then we are going to try one last mood stabilizer I guess and see if my face blows up again?! *rolls eyes* If I don't post as much, you will know I am probably not doing well again, but I'm ok. I just watch a lot of "House" or do other stuff to cope with my depression and moods. I am just no fun right now. I am even tired of hearing myself complain. 0_0

Love ya! Keep me updated on NCIS. Silly me I could just go look and see which season's the last show was on you watched. lol! I still might, I procrastinate well even when I am not depressed.

Deb. :)

Re: Part 1

Date: 2012-07-24 06:25 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] debmommy22.livejournal.com
What night is the last NCIS episode on this week? Let me know what happens. :)

Sorry I have not written to you in a few days, I guess. Not doing well at all as usual. sorry..... Still can't take anything for pain. I won't even chance an Advil or Aspirin. It's awful. I feel all water-logged again too. The edema is not good and still see occasional welts and my skin is sensitive to heat again. Oh well. The worst part is the depression though it comes from the pain as well as my mood disorder. I didn't do zip today! I feel the worse for it. I meant to at least get some laundry done. Maybe tomorrow will go better.

Michael and his Mom (aka Nana) took Alex out to buy new clothes for him today. She always buys Alex's clothes and shoes when he needs them which is really nice of her. I don't know how we would make it without her help sometimes. Alex is growing like a weed! She just bought him some bigger shorts about a month ago and they are too tight on him now. All he had was 2 pair of regurlar shorts and 2 pairs of sweatpant type shorts that would fit him. His shirts are fine, but I was panicking! I was going to be washing the same two pair of shorts every night if we did not go shopping for him! They brought in a big bag of new stuff he tried on that will work so I won't lose my mind now. lol! I have a bunch of size 7 shorts to give to Goodwill now. He is in size 8's. Those last ones he grew out of were 8's, but they were cut wrong for him, also. They never looked good on him. I am afraid to blink!...he will be in size 9's if I do! He is only 7 years old. Wow! He is growing! He is getting taller fast! I didn't remember him growing out of his clothes practically over night before, but my memory sucks + he is more aware now when shorts/pants start getting tighter in the middle. And he will NOT wear anything if it is even a little too tight. lol! I don't blame him though. I want to be comfortable too.

Did the last migraine go away. Haven't posted to you in so long, you may have had another one by now. 0_O

Have you gotten your rabbit taken care of yet? :) I need to put that flea medicine on my cats. Being sick, I have procrastinated and I don't want them to get fleas on them and in the house. I hate those things! Evil blood suckers that torture my kitties.=P

Love ya!
Deb. ♥

Re: Part 1 NCIS & stuff

Date: 2012-07-26 06:09 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] debmommy22.livejournal.com
So how did NCIS end? I am still thinking you just ended on 8 and not 9. I hate that! I wish we could watch them together...well kind of anyway.

How are you doing? Did you get Misty all fixed up at the vet?

The three of us went and had our hair cut today. Long overdue, especially for the boys. I was going to be able to put Alex's hair in a ponytail soon! LOL! My hair is a horrible mess! I need to dye it, but with the "contiuning saga of my edema/rash!"...I am scared to put any kind of chemicals on my scalp yet. I have a bunch of brown and gray grown out at the roots and the rest is blondish and slighly curly from the growing out perm. I need a perm too. No way! Not doing that until I am sure it is ok. Bad thing is that Linda, my hairstylist, will be out of town on vacation the whole month of September! So I would need her to do it in Aug. or wait until October. I will probably just look crappy until Oct. I would be surprised if this mess cleared up before the end of Aug. anyway. :(
Oh well, who cares! I just stay at home mostly anyway. I just had her cut the bangs out of my eyes and trim the layers and ends so I at least don't look so shaggy.

Michael has had some really bad days lately. He is having an awful time with his Mom & Dad. He had an argument with his dad awhile back and his parents...or Dad mostly..."expect" an apology from Michael and Michael doesn't feel he needs to apologize for anything he said to his dad. His dad is "very" stubborn and when he thinks he's right, he's right. No one can tell him he is wrong. He is acting very childish and will not even acknowledge or talk to Michael when they are in the same room together now. Michael has only met up with him once at his dad's shop, but his dad would only talk to Alex, not Michael. I wasn't there, but Michael came home and told me and was extremely upset. Just too many awful things happening to us at once. I am very worried about Michael. I am so scared if I don't try to keep myself out of despair + all the hell his dumbass family is putting him through, he might have a psychotic break or try to hurt himself. He said he felt like he was going psychotic tonight and at least two times in the last three days he has thought about killing himself and that freaked me out! I'm scared and worried about him. I keep wondering if things are ever going to get better for us. We had a good part of last year that wasn't too bad. In-fact, we were quite happy a lot until late Feb. 2012 when my problems got worse and then I think that caused him pain, then our expenses on the house and now his father is being a total jerk! You don't treat your kids like he is treating Michael. Nana says he is hurt, but he is also refusing to act like an adult and sit down and talk to his son who he should love no matter what! They did not believe in unconditional love like my parents did unfortunately. :(

I hope you are feeling better by now. Is the weather still sunny or did it turn on you again?

Deb*hanging out in her nuthouse*

Re: Part 1 NCIS & stuff

Date: 2012-07-31 07:11 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] debmommy22.livejournal.com
Oh, you posted this last Thurs. and I am just now replying. Sorry.

Michael is still having a very difficult time with his Dad. His Dad is giving him the silent treatment which is very cruel, not to mention very imature especially coming from a man in his late 70's! O_O

For sure you just finished Season 8. Yes, I was not happy about EJ. either! lol! Yeah and Ziva went back to dating Ray...but just hang on until Season 9, things will change. That's all I will say and I can't remember right now who Tony was investigating. I know they made a big deal of it and I think it was shrouded in mystery to keep us watching, but I will have to go back and watch the shows again. You know my memory!=P I couldn't spoil much for you if I wanted to! Well, it does make watching re-runs more fun for me sometimes. lol! Yeah, I think Tim does care about Abby a lot. I think they are all a super close family. They even argue and pick on each other like a lot of families do. lol! I forgot the part about Jimmy too. ? He's a sweet guy too. I hate how they always keep us hangang from one Season to the next. They have left us hanging on Season 9 too. It won't be long though until the new shows start. I can't believe how close we are to Sept. already. Alex will be back in school in August. We will have to start getting the stuff he will need for school soon. He's still got a fairly new back pack and lunch box from last year. We had no choice but to buy him a few new clothes last week. He grew out of his shorts it seemed like overnight! He has graduated to Boys 8-20 sizes now. I can't believe how fast he is growing! I cleaned out all his size 7 shorts and will be giving them to Good Will or a family at our Church, not that I have atteneded lately.

How is your stomach? You have been doing so much better with the pills they gave you. I have been so happy for you. I hate this has happened. I have had IBS. problems for years so I know about the bloating and pain. I go back and forth between being so clogged up I have to take laxatives/stool softeners to go to the bathroom... to where I seem to be right now the fun-filled diarrhea kind. Both NOT fun! The d kind always makes my stomach bloat up like I'm pregnant though it has not got quite that bad this time. I have started taking Imodium AD. again which I have not taken in over a year and a-half at least. Pain, worry, and stress can really do a number on me and well a lot of women I think. I hope you are better now. :)

Continuing this on next post.....

Re: Part 1 NCIS & stuff

Date: 2012-08-01 05:23 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] debmommy22.livejournal.com
Yeah, we have all different kinds of yogurts here too. I never used to know there were any differences. I thought yogurt was yogurt. I can't eat that plain yuky kind! I used to love "Bryers" in strawberry and strawberry/banana. Also yoplait brand. I can't find Bryers right now, I need to check out some other food stores. I have never tried one they advertise that is suppose to balance the good and bad bacteria in your stomach. I can't think of the brand name right now. Oh and there is a suppliment called "Align" that I've heard about.

Yeah, I will turn around and Alex will be all grown up!

love back!
Deb. :)

Re: Part 1 NCIS & stuff

Date: 2012-08-01 11:49 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] debmommy22.livejournal.com
PS. Yes they sell Activia yogurt here too. They advertise it here all the time. I mentioned a food supplement on another post to you, it was Activa I was trying to think of. My brain is gone. How does it taste? Can you get it in fruit flavors?...and why don't I just look it up online? I need new meds!...but....oh well....

Crazy Deb. :/

Re: Part 2 NCIS & stuff

Date: 2012-07-31 07:19 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] debmommy22.livejournal.com
cont. from (Re: Part 1 NCIS & stuff)

You sound like you are doing very well taking care of your rabbit. I hope you and George got all the white fluff off. lol! My cats should see the vet more, but it is just too much money. I just make sure we keep flea med. on them like I've said before. I am more worried about Alex's stomach problems and his teeth. We badly need to set up an appointment with his dentist to have them cleaned. I've done very bad by him in that the years Michael was messed up on drugs, I didn't get Alex into a very set routine of brushing his teeth. Once a day is all he does now and that is not enough! He had bunch of his baby teeth capped last year and has not had a cleaning this year. I can't get him to floss either. We flossed them for him for awhile, but Michael got tired of doing it. We gave up. I wish I could find a way to encourage him to do it. He hates brushing his teeth and we tell him all the time that he will lose his teeth if he doesn't take care of them. I'm letting my own problems get in the way of making sure Alex is taking care of well enough or at least that is the way I feel. It doesn't help that Michael has not pushed to get his teeth checked out more othen either though I know he cares. Michael didn't brush much as a kid either and got a lot of cavities and lost teeth too I think. I am so the opposite about mine. I even had braces on mine when I was 16 years old. I wanted pretty, straight, healthy teeth, so that is why I kick myself so hard about Alex's. His extreme Vickery stubborness about not brushing doesn't help either. I'm in worry mode again, I need to stop it or I will never stop itiching.

I have no idea what is going on with my freaked-out body/brain! My stomach has been upset for days. Also, I have been swollening air or something, I have all these gas pains in my chest and I can't burp it all out! LOL! It really hurts though. I have had it in the past at times where it hurt when I would breathe in. This air just sits in my chest mostly, stomach or back sometimes too. I took "Tums" but I am not sure they helped. Finally most of it worked its way out, but right after it was over I started itching and breaking out in some welts again. I think all this is stress related now because I am still not taking any drugs that could cause this insanity. I am in a constant state of some kind of upsetness (is that a word?) about myself all the time it seems. I have got to work on the relaxation, I know. :( I took a Benadryl, but I think it is pointless, maybe it helps some and I just don't realize it.

That was really nice that you helped out your 79 year old neighbor. I am sure she appreciated it. :)

Long post again! YES! They cut me as you know by now! LOL!

Love you and I am sorry I have not been writing you sooner. I am going to work on that. I miss talking to you and think about you everyday even when I can't seem to push myself to type or if I have to go out and don't feel up to posting when I get home. Write me anytime. I do check my mail everyday and I will push myself to write you back if I have to, I mean if I am feeling bad ya know. I always "want" to write to you! I hate being me sometimes....whine, complain.......

{{{Hugs}}} & Love
Deb*long lost sis aka mental patient* ♥

Re: Part 2 NCIS & stuff

Date: 2012-08-01 05:36 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] debmommy22.livejournal.com
Yes that gas was awful!...and yeah it is painful, but I need to laugh about this crap. I wish I could. I didn't seem to have it much at all today. Just a little fullness in my chest and throat. The itching and welts seem to come and go. *rolls eyes*

Oh your mother really needs to be careful. She could really hurt herself at her age. I know our bones get more brital with age and especially after menopause. If she fell and broke something, is there anyone you can call that could come help?!

I will be thinking of poor Misty and of you tomorrow. I hope things go well with the surgery. :) Poor little toothless thing! :( ...how does he eat his carrots? lol! Just kidding! I know you buy him rabbit food. :D

Good Luck tomorrow or rather today now.

Love Deb. ♥

Re: Part 2 NCIS & stuff

Date: 2012-08-01 11:56 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] debmommy22.livejournal.com
I hope the weather wasn't too bad. It looks like it is going to rain here soon. It is stormy looking.

I'm glad your mum is ok and I hope never hurts herself bad enough that you have to call an ambulance. Silly woman! lol!

hugs Deb. :)

Part 2

Date: 2012-07-18 08:39 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] debmommy22.livejournal.com
Well I got through the last post to you without talking about myself. Amazing! lol! That might be a first for ME! *grins evilly*
From now on, if I haven't said...everytime I tell you I am on a new med., remember, it probably won't be the one I will stay on. *rolls eyes* This is just ridiculous! The new mood stabilizer caused my face to swell up on Monday night. I had been on the full dose, a baby dose at that, for 2 two days. We were coming back home from a friend's house and my lip started to swell up and then the bottom part of both cheecks. Slower this time, but I looked horrible by the end of it. Needed a steroid shot, but the walk-in-clinic was closed when it happened like 9:00 p.m. I would have had to go to the emergency room and since my tongue was not swollen and I could breathe, I would have been forced to sit there on "hard" chairs with my bit pain or stand up most of the time with a very sleepy child in tow and a tired-out husband, for hours most likely. Critical patients always come first which is right I know, but I had a few Prednizones I hadn't taken and my benadryl so I just took them and when the last mood pill I took started wearing off, "slowly" my face started deflating. GEEZ! The next day, I still looked like Alven and the Chipmuncks smuggling nuts in their cheeks. They are a little better today, but still swollen some. It will go away, but I hate going anywhere like this. Also, I started itching again that first night and woke up with some small welts, mostly around my neck, a few on my arms, one on my tummy. No so bad this time, but this time I stopped the medicine, of course, as soon as it happened.

We called Dr. Marshall and he gave us the names of the last two mood stablizers I haven't tried! Only two left! We agreed on trying Keppra. I can spell this one. It has no listing of edama swelling or hives as a side effect and it is "suppose" to work quite differently from Lamicatal and Gabapentin, (the last two I took.)
I really have little faith in Keppra and in any of them at this point. I think, possibly, the extra drugs I took + stress set Lamicatal off and my body chemistry is just too screwed up. I think I am going to swell up on any mood stabilizer now, but who knows? I could be wrong. I've just given up. To stay out of pain I just don't wear panties anymore except when I dress to go out. I have a worsening hemmoriod which I have had for weeks. I keep using this cream on it, but if it is helping, it is very slow-going, and yes this is gross, but going poop only makes it worse again and I can't hold it while waiting for this thing to shrink down and go away. Oh, and I didn't sleep but a few hours because of itching and withdrawl. I'm so much fun! I just want to stay in bed and do nothing, though I will probaly have to make a grociery list and go to the food store with Michael a little later while Alex visits his Nana and Papa. I know Michael would take the list while I stay here if I want, but he and I know it would probably be better if I got out of the house even for a short while.

It is starting to thunder again. I need to shut down this computer because it is connect to the wall, No UPS. to protect it from lighening strikes.

Sorry again to write all my crap on your fic of the week post. Why don't I update my owm LJ?@! It is just nice to have a friend to blabber to sometimes instead of a whole group. You are my buddy. Poor thing!!! LOL! *hides*

I hope you are feeling better by now. I know it is late where you are again. I have just been laying in bed avoiding life while watching "House." ...and stopped it long enough to post some before you go to sleep.

Love ya!
Deb ♥

PS. sorry for all the edits, weather is bad, afriad I would lose all this junk I wrote if I didn't save often.
Edited Date: 2012-07-18 08:54 pm (UTC)

Re: Part 2

Date: 2012-07-20 03:45 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] debmommy22.livejournal.com
I hope we both feel better and do better soon too.

Thank you sweet girl!

I'm glad you had fun on ebay. Girls love to shop, even if we don't have a lot of money. I go out every so often get a few things for me and it makes me feel better.

I hope that migraine takes a hike! Two days is too long. Ouch! I usually find it hard to watch TV or get on the computer when my head is hurting. You poor thing. :(

{{{Fluffy Hugs}}}

love Deb. ♥

:D

Re: Part 2

Date: 2012-07-24 06:46 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] debmommy22.livejournal.com
Well, I guess I didn't keep up my end of the bargain on having a better week. Like I said on the other post, my Monday sucked. Oh well. I am hoping tomorrow will not be so bad since Michael will be here instead of out with Nana and Alex shopping. I should have went somewhere myself today. It is that time of the month for me, so I am going to be extra grumpy and whiny this week. I know.... I'm "tons" of fun right now! NOT.

I love the sound of your Christmas cards. They don't have to be cross stich. I remember loving to make them when I was a kid with markers, cutting out shapes on pretty paper, and sprinkling on Christmas glitter. So much fun!

Well let me know how you're doing. I really don't have much to say for a change and if I do it will just be depressing stuff and I feel bad complaining all the time. I'm tired of listening to my own complaining and my worrying thoughts. I'm just taking it day-by-day.

love ya!
Deb. :)

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